~My LoV3lY S1T3~

~115~

2010-10-20T00:11:00.007+08:00

Today i am not in a good mood.. I don't know what i done to make you have a distance from me.. I didn't force you into a relationship with meas i know now you are thinking about her and also some personal issues which i won't say it out here but i hope to just spend most of time with you to help you forget about her.. I had been wanting to say some words to you but i control myself not to as i am worried that you will leave me once i say out.. The more i wanted the more jealous i am.. With your ex girlfriends and those girls you love/like as they can spend their time with you even weekends too at your lovely room.. But i don't have.. Even wanting to have you hugging me to sleep is also difficult.. Hope that you will want to spend a lovely holiday with me..

Got to stop, the more i write the more sad i am.. :( Good night people.. Sweet dreams.. Muack my lovely baobei..

~HiRoKo~

~114~

2010-10-06T21:07:00.004+08:00

Today reach home so early.. Reach home before 7pm and it had been a long time that i had not been reaching home so early since i started working.. If i am not sick, i think i will continue to work.. I just too tired to continue.. Had my dinner and after eating, i feel my stomach is not that well even until now my stomach is not well too.. Even i went to the toilet, i still not feeling that well.. I don't what i have during lunch time.. Maybe my gastric is not well..

I think last few days, one of my colleagues try to help me massage my shoulder but i told her don't want as my shoulder is very stiff, she don't believe me at all until she do it then she believe what i say.. I so long never do any massage, of course is very stiff as too stress with my life.. Hope someone can help me to massage..

Just happen to write my friend's blog and she post up this about relationship which i think is true..

** In a relationship..
no right or wrong..
no one is perfect..
stay or leave..
you wont because dun have anyone cant survive..
people come and go..
it’s just the matter how u look at it..
after all…
just be honest to yourself… =) **

If i have someone who i can love and be with, i will cherish the moments that we have in the whole entire relationship.. Guys are also for us, ladies to love, cherish and not to disrespect them.. I will put in more effort in the relationship to make him love me more and care for me more.. I really wish to have a relationship soon.. As i am a bit tired of being single.. Sometimes i do wish i have someone can spend his time with me and not spending my most of my time at home.. I not saying spending time with family is boring but boyfriend and family are 2 different issue... So hope i will have one soon...

Too tired now.. Will update soon.. Good night people.. Sweet dreams..

~HiRoKo~

~113~

2010-10-04T00:35:00.002+08:00

Had a fun weekends but i am missing someone now.. You know who i am talking about..!! Saturday went out with my mum and brother to Mustafa to buy some stuff and walk all the way to Bugis Kwang Yin Temple to pray for awhile.. After that went to Bugis to shopping.. I bought myself a dress, a top, a pair of heels and a Guess hangbag.. I love it alot.. Was a tired day but i enjoy spending time with my mum and brother..

Then today i went to Sentosa Resort World to watch the VOYAGE DE LA VIE with my sisters, brother, cousin and my third sister's boyfriend.. I love the show alot of my sisters don't really like.. I also don't know why.. But if i got the chance to go again, i would want to go with him.. Hope he won't reject me..

Like what i told you today.. If you want me to accompany you to go where, i will definitely say YES and won't reject you.. But i don't know the time will come or not.. I know you worry i will get hurt but this type of things, no one can defend.. I just hope to spend more time with you and be by your side when you need me.. I sometimes wish to say that out to you but i know i can't.. I don't wish to scare you away nor ignore me.. So the most i can do now is just spend most of my time with you and enjoy every day, every hour, every minute, every second with you and keep it as memories...

Got to go and sleep to prepare for tomorrow war in my office.. Good night people.. Sleep tight and have a sweet dreams..

~HiRoKo~

~112~

2010-09-26T00:50:00.002+08:00

Just move office yesterday from west to east part of Singapore and work until almost 1am in the next morning with my bestie.. Then this morning i wake up at 9plus as one of my Haulier call me for delivery issue.. Can't even had a proper sleep as got to worry for work anytime.. Will always been wake up by my Haulier for delivery issue.. But this is my job so i got to hold on and not compliant so much..

I really don't know what should i do.. The more i want to be with you, the more you don't know what to do.. I don't wish to force you about this issue but you can't always don't know what to choose.. I just want you to know i don't care who you actually are or what things you have or the issues you having now, all i want is to be by your side and just spend time with you.. That's why i don't wish to force you at all.. But very thankfully to you that you actually willingly to spend your time with me when you can.. I am glad i got to know you and you willingly to tell me your past and present life and be true to me.. You are the only guy that i tell my past and present life without any hidden things.. I want to say something to you but i know you won't want me to say it.. You should know it very well what i want to tell you... Thanks for your care and tender to me.. I love the way you treat me..

Going to sleep soon.. People out there good night and sweet dreams..

~HiRoKo~

~111~

2010-09-18T01:46:00.004+08:00

After so long of being out of my blog, i decided to visit my blog and happen to see so much dirt and spider on it.. LOLX...

So much things happen in such a year plus, good and bad things happen so fast.. I started working and is my first full time/permanent job doing transport coordinator in a 3th party logistics company.. Back to familiar working environment but this time round, i feel much more difficult to find my own way in here... I still feel that i am still badly struggling in the office until now.. I don't know which way should i go.. But i am glad that i have a nice boss who always help me through... I will be back in my boss's office next year to do admin work as i can't take the stress anymore.. But i still considering whether to carry on or to move to other line.

In a year plus, i had a boyfriend who treat me very nice and sweet but after a month later, my horror comes.. It makes me hate myself more and more.. I won't say what happen in between this 7 months here.. SO don't ask me anything because i won't say.. But i learn a lot in this relationship how to love myself more than anyone else.. But sorry is that i make my surrounded people very worried include my family and close friends and even some of my colleagues who care for me much.. I try to put myself strong enough to let them think i am fine but sorry to say that, i actually can't get over with the hurt and damage he gives to me.. But now i am still recovering with my own self.. Got to be strong!!!!

After this broke up, i get to know a few guys but all happen to be passer by... Even got guys tell me not to fall in love with them as they can't give me any hope so they ask me to give up.. But if i give up, will i get my love?? The answer is NO.. To me, Love is not to be so selfish.. Even how poor how rich you are, you shouldn't push away someone who deeply in love with you or you deeply in love with.. As with him/her around you, you might be more stronger and braver than in the past... You should cherish that someone more as she/he willingly to go through whatever difficulties you are facing now means a lot to you with his/her support.. But just to be strong in whatever things you going to do...

Too tired now, got to go and sleep soon.. Night everyone.. Blog in the next time.. ~Ywan~

~HiRoKo~

The Quiz "The Real You."

2009-09-26T01:13:00.002+08:00

I completed the quiz "The Real You." with the result Yourself

Result:-

The truth is, you already are aware of yourself and who you are. You've come to terms with yourself and have been through almost everything. You live, love, and cherish. You...'ve already shown everyone your true colors. Your life is complete. Nothing hold you back. You've lived with regrets, anger, hurt, despair, light dark, and everything in between. However, these things won't stop you. Keep living on. You find beauty in yourself and others. You are prone to changing. You let your emotions out and keep them that way. Everyone admires you for your loyalty and trustworthiness. You are a truly unique and one in your own..

~HiRoKo~

~Freebies InSide~

2009-07-14T16:22:00.001+08:00

Come grad some of the freebies by signing up and is for Freeee.....

Here is the Link:-

~HiRoKO~

~110~

2009-07-01T00:34:00.005+08:00

Today so happy for me... I have my date after i broke off with my ex-boyfriend.. This guy who i know is a nice and caring guy.. Hopefully will go more further down and know him more.. We went to watch Transformer 2 and i find it not that fantastic as part 1.. I will only give 3.5stars for this show... During the movie, we talk alot in the cinema and enjoy every moments with him... Feels comfortable and secure with him.. He look cute and charming... Hopefully will meet up soon and my status will change during this year...

Had happen alot of things at the past. Now will say out some of it. Left 20 more days to go for my Perth Trip with Sandy and Marni... So happy that i will be going but will take precaution before we leave Singapore.. So people don't worry.. Had join Aerobics class with my sister, Sandy and Marni during Wednesday but had started our class since last Wednesday and happen alot of funny stuff in the class.. First lesson, we already late because of my sister and Sandy who boss don't want to release her on time... So we are late for 20 mins and when we get in, we are confused why isn't our instructor a female instead of a male as we do receive a message from the course that our instructor is a female so we gossip at the back and the male instructor hear it and explain to us.. So paiseh... This coming Sunday will be my last yoga lesson.. So fast that my yoga had end but sad is during my yoga lesson, i sprain my ankle and was swollen and until now still abit swollen as i keep walking and didn't let it rest at all.. All my family members and friends keep telling to stop walking but i won't stop one... Marni say me there isn't anyone learn yoga can learn until like you kana swollen. Can't blame as i too careless to sprain my ankle...

I finally have a job at a Tuition Centre which is just 3 bus stops away from my house... But i don't like the enviorment there and will only work till September as i do have other plans coming up.. Will only say it out when it is confirm...

So happy, finally bought the Samsung touch screen phone which is Samsung Preston and i bought it white colour and my youngest sister bought the purple colour... My brother saw it and also wish to buy the same phone as us.. So he want to buy the black colour..

Here is the phone picture which i bought:-

Think that's all i can think of it now.. will blog in again the next time..

~HiRoKo~

~109~

2009-04-14T13:31:00.002+08:00

Finally here is another blog of mine... I was watching 世界正美丽 Wonderful World host by 鴨子(高伊玲) at Channel 8 and she was introducing Bali.. I saw this beautiful church and she was taking some photos of it and i was deeply in love with this beautiful place.. Hope i got this chance to go there and see it myself... This church was in Conrad Bali for couples to prepare for their wedding or even photo-taking... Was such a beautiful place for couples to prepare for their wedding... If i got this special chance to do my wedding there, i will do it there... Upload some of the photos for you guys to view...

Here are those Photos:-

Is it a beautiful place??? My prefect wedding to be with my future husband.. Who will be that guy??? Will stop now... Write in another time... Later might be going to Mustafa to meet Marni, Uncle Ray and maybe Sandy too... As Uncle wanted to go to eat his beloved prata... He and his prata...

~HiRoKo~

~108~

2009-04-05T15:52:00.003+08:00

When will it be my turn to have someone there for me???? Now keep hearing my friends have boyfriends or girlfriends and even my sisters, one has a prefect boyfriend with her and that other one, now got a rich guy wooing her... I know love can't be force and must wait because the fate is not there yet... Not that i am desperate but i just want a caring boyfriend is it so difficult??? But i always feel blessing when i was in my dream as there will be my "boyfriend" there for me.... But that was my dream not real-life... Sylvia, Wake up!!!!!

On a particular day, my mum pop out a question to me... She say you look so lonely why don't you look for a boyfriend... I was shock of hearing this question from my mum.. I just never answer her... No one will want to have his girlfriend to be like me... Say looks, i don't have... Say figure, i confirm don't have... When i needs a shoulder to lay on, also don't have.. I do have some listeners with me but they can't always be there for me as they got alot of things to do too like accompany their boyfriends or friends...

They can't forever be with me.. Can say that after i break up with my ex-boyfriend, i just can't find someone who is better than him and can give me all the trust... I do think of someone who i have memories with... He is not my ex-boyfriend but he is someone important to me in the past... But now he also has someone there for him... I do regret in the past, i didn't choose him but i choose my ex-boyfriend... But that is my fate... I can't say anything...

Anyway, to all my friends and "enemies", wish you and your partners love stay strong and love forever...

~HiRoKo~

~107~

2009-03-10T20:39:00.003+08:00

Yesterday night, i had a dream.. I dreamt of my sister and her friend which i won't name who is he... We were at the school compound and while we will talking, her friend saw us and shout our names from far awhile... I don't know why i went to hug him and after that my my sister walk off to find her friend and he accompany me while waiting for her.. I ask him why he was at here and he told me that he accompany his friends.. Then i told him that he had change alot.. Become more charming and good-looking.. I don't know why but suddenly he hug me and turn me around... When he stop turning, my head was so giddy and i jusy lay my head on his chest and he just hold me for preventing me to fall down... At that moment, i feel so 幸福 that someone willing to hug me and make me feel so important to him because of what he say.. He told me that he willing to hug me forever if i willing to.. In my real life and dream, that is the first time a guy hug me and turn around.. But i know in my real life, that won't happen... Still hope one day, my boyfriend will do that to me... I really envious my surrounding who had partners with them to share happiness and unhappiness... But when is my turn to have someone there for me???

I finally start working.. Back to my previous job and sadly is that my polytechnic application fail and i can't go to any polytechnic.. I had made up my mind.. This whole year, i will go find a full-time job to work and next year study part-time.. Maybe degree or back to Polytechnic to study diploma.. So i got to save alot of money this year as i need to go for a vacation thus year with Marni and Sandy and also i need to fork out some money to do my house kitchen as it had been worst than before... If never renovation, the kitchen will be worst... Also this year, i will become a Singapore Citizen with my whole family... Hopefully everything will be smooth... Write in another time...

~HiRoKo~

~小鬼跳舞~

2009-02-26T15:02:00.001+08:00

~Look So Cute & Cool at the Same Time~~~~
~小鬼加油~~~~~

~HiRoKo~

~幸福不滅 - 羅志祥~

2009-02-25T18:50:00.002+08:00

~This MV and Song belong to Hot Shot (籃球火)... It is so nice and i love it alotttt~~~~
~加油小猪;羅志祥~~~~

~HiRoKo~

~106~

2009-02-25T17:44:00.002+08:00

Finally write in another blog... Had alot of fun for the past few weeks but sadly is that i still jobless... I really need a part time job before i can go Taiwan if not, i can't go on the August period...

During Valentine's Day, i celebrate with Sandy, Donavan & Andy... Surprise to see Sandy & Donavan name here??? They should be spending their time together for the whole day right but they spend their time in the morning and around 3pm, we meet up to go to Party World to have fun but Andy came late as he got driving lesson until 4pm and he came around 5pm and only sing for awhile but we still have fun together... During at night, we went to Suntec to have our dinner... We went to eat Thai Foods at Tuk Tuk Thai Kitchen... Was surprise to see their restuarant in a mess as short of manpower and that day super alot of people went out for dinner... Alot of foods very fast out of stock... But their foods is very very nice out of 10, i give them 9.5... After that, we went to Arcade for awhile... They went to catch the softtoys but spend around 25 bucks, none of them catch any... After the games, we went to Andersen for ice cream and Donavan bought us a cup of it and shared among us but i was so full until i can't even eat a mouth of it... After that, we went back home and rest...

Last Thursday, i went Sentosa with my dearest girl Marni... That day was a good day for Sun Tanning but in the end i become lobster instead of tanning but is ok... I just go there to accompany Marni as she wanted to go there since a long time but always can't go because she got job to do... If anyone wish to go Sentosa for Tanning without a big crowd, go there on Thursday... Because of that day at the beach, was only me and Marni and there wasn't anyone there after around 12noon... But around that time, we already going to left the place and we went to eat our lunch at a market... After eating, Marni wanted to go back to office to use the toilet and i went to office to find my friends to talk for awhile... After that, we went to Mustafa for a walk and went to Toa Payoh Central for a walk too... Then at night, we went to pick up my brother to go directly to Seng Kang Swimming Complex and on the way wait for Uncle and his daughter, Bivia... Then we went to eat Mac for our dinner... While waiting for Uncle to swim finish, Marni got Summon for her car for over parking her car there without putting a new coupon...

Last Saturday, i went out with Sandy because she needs to buy jeans and we met at Bugis at 1.30pm but i reached there around 1pm instead... When she reach already, i rememebr Hang Ten having discount on their jeans... So we went there and see and she bought 2 pairs of jeans... This is her first time to buy somethings within 20 mintues time... After that, we went to Bugis Village to buy ear rings so we went to the shop where we always buy... I bought a pair of it which cost me around 30 plus bucks and Sandy almost spend around 40 plus bucks as she bought around 3 pairs... After that, we went to Suntec city for a walk and we went to Arcade to catch softtoys but we spend 10 bucks without catching any so we stop and went to Marina Square for a walk and we went to Subway to eat and beside Subway, there was a shop selling those catching softtoys... So we went there and see and spend around 60 bucks to catch softtoys but we did catch some... But the photos are with Sandy so got to wait for her to send to me and i can upload to let you guys see... We going to play the Jackpot the next time... So i need to go find a job so i can have fun with Sandy...

Last few days my ex-boyfriend call me again and we have a long chit chat but the content of it, i wouldn't say out here but for those close friends of mine, you will know what happen when i meet you guys up... You should know who you are...

And lastly, thanks Marni for the Valentine's gift you give me... Will upload the photos once i send it here... Got to go for my dinner write in another time...

~HiRoKo~

~[Live/HQ] 081229 Wonder Boys 2 : Kissing you&Nobody~

2009-02-10T18:50:00.002+08:00

~Love Them Much When They Are So Cute~~~
~SupEr JuNiOr, ShiNee, Big Bang & 2AM Fighting~~~~

~HiRoKo~

~Wonder Boys HQ 080907 Live Special (high audio)~

2009-02-10T18:46:00.000+08:00

~Love Them So Cuteeeee~~~~~

~HiRoKo~

~105~

2009-02-02T14:20:00.003+08:00

Here is another blog i going to write in today... Last Saturday, Wan Qian, Sandy and Andy come to my house for Chinese New Year and around 4 plus me, Sandy and WanQian went to Far East to buy belts, Sandy bought a pair of new shoes and Sandy and Wan Qian bought a pair of fake Eyes Lashes for themselves...

After Far East, we went to City Hall because we actually want to go to River HongBao but we thought was at the High Court there but in the end was at the Marina Bay Floating Platform... We didn't go at all so we went to chit chat and talk alot of things with WanQian & Sandy... Talk so much about relationship and make me miss my previous relationship... Now i wish to find someone who dote and will be there for me...

When is time to go home, i take bus with Sandy and when Sandy off the bus, i was alone and i think alot of things... And i got a feeling to message my Ex-boyfriend so i send him a message and told him i am missing him now and ask him how is him and whether he is woo any girls right now but he say now not at the moment and he say got to see fate... Then after that, i ask him whether why he was so cold towards me before we broke off... He told me that at that moment, his feeling towards me had fade away and he say sorry to say that but before he told me, i actually know it but i just want him to say out...

But nevermind, we already become friends now so no choice to keep thinking of my past... Looking forwards for my life in Ox Year... Oh ya, Thanks WanQian for the treat of the dinner at Gelare Cafe... Love ya much to Both of them...

Here is the photo we took on that day:-

WanQian, Sandy & Me

~HiRoKo~

~羅志祥_撐腰 (完整版)~

2009-01-21T21:06:00.003+08:00

Is a nice MV done by Show Luo and he is really a nice guy as he did his part to thanks those people around him...

~HiRoKo~

동방신기 (TVXQ)'s Haha Songs

2009-01-21T16:40:00.005+08:00

Enjoy all these videos by TVXQ for their Samsung latest Advertisement in Korea...

~HiRoKo~

~Touch of Love~

2009-01-16T15:38:00.002+08:00

Here is a poems for love that i found when i was browsing my email and saw this email which i send to my ex-boyfriend 4 years ago...:-

Touch of Love

Love can be happiness
and can sometimes hurt;
It can be a betrayal
There for you seek comfort.
Love can change your life
and be the the happiest you've ever been;
Love can change your personality
And be someone no one has ever seen.

Love can make you strong
When you have someone by your side;
Love can make something beautiful
That neither will have denied.
Love can bring you joy
Even at the saddest times;
Love can make you smile
Even while writing these rhymes.

Love is trust
And the truth must always be told;
Together both can work through anything
And lies must you never hold.
Love is a feeling
And a word with meaning;
Love can be good and bad
But something everyone believes in.

There are so many words
That can describe how I feel;
But happiness is one
I can definitely reveal.
You brightened up my life
In way no one will understand;
I will do anything for you
As my best friend, lover even husband.

My heart has been broken before
And you have made it whole;
With the kindness in your heart
And your beautiful soul.
The tears I cry now
Are of how happy I have become;
You will always be in my life
And remain to get a special welcome.

Whenever I am down
I can always run to you;
No matter what the situation
We will work it out and never argue.
Days when I am lost
And my soul is no where to be found;
Please stand by me babe
Cause without you I will drown.

I know sometimes I can hurt you
With the stupid things I say;
But I have loved you all this time
And never stopped for a day.
I am scared of losing you
And you moving away from my heart;
But deep down I know
Nothing will ever be able to tear us apart.

I just want you to know
That I always want what is best for you;
I'll always put you before me
And I'll always remain true.
Days when I miss you
I can't handle being alone;
Each day that passes by
I can't remember what it was like on my own.

You have changed my life so much
And its all been for the better;
You have made me so happy
Times while you ache inside
I will still be there;
I'll help you through your fights
Because I love you and I care.

I can see me with you forever
I can see us growing old;
We will remain close together
And let our story be told.
I can see myself walking down the aisle
And you waiting at the end;
Standing next to the love of my life
As the ceremony commends.

I can see us for the rest of our lives
Having kids and living in happiness;
Watching them grow older
As they become more gorgeous.
I can see us growing old together
Becoming grandparents in our age;
Look back at so many memories with more to
make
As we turn another page.

I don't know what could break us
Our relationship is so strong;
Each day you prove to me
How much you and I belong.
But if ever I were to lose you
And we couldn't talk or feel you near;
I will always love you and remember you
As I cry an ocean of tears.

Throughout my life I have never shared a love
Of the kind that I have with you;
A love so beautiful and strong
Always sharing and true.
Your heart will always be with my heart
It will always be you and I;
I will never hurt you or let you go
And I'll never let out love for each other die..

~HiRoKo~

~104~

2009-01-16T12:58:00.010+08:00

Here is another blog i going to post up... I went to view other people's blog and found out that got two TPJC Students were doing some gross behaviour in the bus and was taken by someone and post up to STOMP... Why some youngster actually can do that in the bus??? If you guys so into i, can do it at some private places like home or even Hotel also can.... Why must be in the bus??? For people to see or learn from you guys??? Bus is a public places where there will be adults, kids and even elderly people... Is really not a nice place to have such behaviour in there... Anyway we can't say anything much here... Hope people can learn from this news... Will stop now and will write in another time...

Here is the news of the to TPJC:-

TPJC Couple petting in bus back seat:Girl moaned and screamed at times

I wonder if the school will do anything about this. What to do... Kids nowadays are getting hornier. Poor girl... She don't know what she's getting herself into.

These two Junior College students were heavy petting at the back of bus number 12, says STOMPer EnG. The girl even moaned and screamed at certain points.

Here's what the shocked STOMPer had to say:

"I witnessed these two young Junior College students having fun at the back of the bus number 12."They got on at Tampines JC bus stop."Throughout the ride, soft moans were heard being made by the girl. At certain times the girl actually screamed."The girl was even lying down at times."I don't know what were they doing, but the guy looked like he was really enjoying it."They were touching, heavy petting, groping. It was so unsightly as they were not shy at all about displaying such affections in public."

Was post up by MelonSyrup and here is the blog website:-
http://melonsyrup.blogspot.com/2009/01/tpjc-couple-petting-in-bus-back-seat.html

~HiRoKo~

~Ph0t0s(103)~

2009-01-14T16:26:00.016+08:00

Here is a new blog, had been at home for the past one week and had nothing to do so i had do such photos using PhotoFunia and upload it here for you guys to view it... But i still hope can come back to work soon and start my work again as i feel so tried when i stay at home doing nothing... Chinese New Year is around the corner... Next Sunday will be Chinese New Year Eve... But this year is a special year for my whole family because we will be celebrating this year in Singapore due to our Pre Singapore CitizenShip so we are unable to go back Malaysia for Chinese New Year...

Here is the photos that i do:-

~Me Alone Thinking Something~

~Me & Nicolas during our trip to flyer~

~My Gang during Christmas '08~

~Me & Wan Qian during Andy & Jia Fu's Birthday~

~Me & MaRni at D&D '08~

~MaRni, GaRy, Me At D&D '08~

~MarNi, AlEx, Me, GaBrIel, AnDrew At D&D '08~

~Sandy, Me & Ashley(FrOnt) JiA Wen & WaNQian(BacK) at Christmas '08~

~Me, WaNqIaN, SaNdY During Christmas '08~

~HiRoKo~

~102~

2009-01-04T12:01:00.001+08:00

A new year has come…. I got to put down all those unhappiness things aside without bringing them along…. Got to start my life fresh every year but this year will be a special year for me as I finally become a Singaporean after 13th of January 2009…. This year wishes are get myself a Mr. Right and my studies will be smooth… I last week 30th of December 2008 just bought a Book named YAKUZA MOON (MEMOIRS OF A GANGSTER’S DAUGHTER) which I long ago wanted to buy… As the book cover did caught my eyesight during last year as this cover is a woman back with a full tattoo… Why I bought it later is because previously was a hard book cover which is heavy to carry around and was because one of my friend bought it and I thought of borrowing from him but in the end he forgot about it so I thinking to buy and lucky when I wanted to buy that time, the soft book cover just release and very fast out of stock so I do a reservation at kinokuniya Bookstore…

I starting reading this book was Friday night… When I started to read, I won’t be able to stop it as this book taught me a lot of stuff which I didn’t learn from my life… She was born at 1968 and her name is Shoko become the head of the gangster’s daughter… Shoko was living in luxury place for more than 10 years but when she reached at the age of 7, she was almost raped by her dad’s man in her own room when her dad was in jail of some problems… But when her dad was release, his attitude had change overnight… He will be a nice husband and dad in the morning but when the night starts, he will go to all kind of pub to have a drink and will bring all kind of hostesses home… When he reaches home, he will shout at her mum and will throw all the things which he can reach to… And at the age of 12, she had became a yanki(Ah Lian) and had her first sex with her first boyfriend… After that, she was being bully by all kind of Yanki around her area… The worst of her bullies was almost being gang raped but lucky was one of her rapist was actually her classmate so he saved her out of the trouble… She also started to take some kind of drugs and one fine day, she took a large potion of the drug until she was ‘High’ at the moment, she pull a guy of her gang who she had no feeling of on top of her and when she was awake, she find her head was laying on his shoulder…

After she reaches at the age of 15, she was being sent to reform school after she was caught by police… When her time in reform school for 8 months, she had changed to a behave girl but when she starts to come out that moment, her life change… Her day to go home, her Yanki friend was waiting out her house for her to come back… When she saw her friend was there, she ran to her to hug her… And where her exciting story began…. That moment, her friend ask her to out for fun as the rest of the yanki missed her a lot but the sad thing is that her parents was standing outside the house for her to go in but she choose to go out with her friends without thinking of her parents’ feeling… After that, her dad was hospitalized and she takes the role of taking care of her dad in the hospital… Because at that time, her dad’s business is going down and her mum needs to take the role of her dad in the business and taking care of baby sister… Her elder sister had just married at that time and her elder brother was busy with his own stuff…. So for those pass months, she was busy taking care of her dad so she had not time with her gang out there… In the hospital, a elderly lady came to talk to her and say she had a beautiful blond hair which was her naturally hair when in school all her teachers don’t believe her and keep asking her to dye by her hair into black and that was the first time someone did praise her for her blond hair… One fine day, when she was in the hospital, she went to the vending machine to buy a soda can, she saw a wallet was laying at the floor… So she opens out to see what is inside and she saw a huge cash in there, she almost took the cash out of the wallet but she didn’t, in the end, she handed in the wallet to the nurse room and after awhile, a nurse pushed a elderly guy towards her and the nurse told the guy that she was the one who picked up the wallet…. So the guy thanked her for the kind help and he put out some cash from his wallet and wanted to pass the cash to her but she rejected… The guy told her dad that she is a nice and helpful girl and her dad told her he was proud of her doing that…

But after her dad was discharged from hospital, she starts her yanki lifestyle again… She also started to take all kind of drugs, one fine day Shoko went to her friend’s friend’s house to have fun… But that guy was up to something was Shoko doesn’t expect it to happen on her… After Shoko had taken the drug for first time and she find that this drug is so strong and she can’t take it, so she want to go back home and her friend told that guy that they are going home so that guy passed her friend some cash and told her friend that used this cash to send Shoko and her friend home by cab… So Shoko and her friend went to that guy’s house for the second time but this time round, something happen on her… After they had injected the drug into their body, he told them he got something on so will be back later and ask Shoko and her friend to wait for him to come back so Shoko and her friend did waited for that guy to be back home while they are resting… Suddenly, her friend told her that she got something on and need to go out for awhile but will be back soon… So leave Shoko alone at that guy’s house playing Nintendo, but no one expect that he will be back during Shoko was alone… Once he saw her, he immediately ask her want to have something to eat but she say is so late already, I think I should be going back home but that guy say her friend is not coming back anyway and ask her why not we have sex… Shoko was so scared so she tried her best to get out of his house, but that guy strength was so strong that had her on the floor and Shoko tried to struggle but when she did that, that guy use his hand wear he wears his ring on hit her face with it until it bleeds… But when her strength started to fade away, someone bang on the door… So that guy lets me out and I ran towards the door and ran off back to my house without wearing my shoes on… But the next day, her friend called her to say sorry to her and told her that she didn’t expect him for doing that… Shoko told her she doesn’t want to hear so she hanged up the call immediately… After that incident, she found out that the guy was actually her friend’s boyfriend…

After that incident, she didn’t hanged up with her friend and the rest of the members and change her hangout with the other group of gang… Her house was being destroyed by all kind of debt collector everyday…. One day, a group of collector came to her house when one of her previous friends was there as a collector and saw her so he talk to her for awhile but her friend’s head saw it and ask him what is her name… Her terrible accident coming to her way… That particular night, her friend call and ask her out for a dinner but Shoko did ask him whether is anyone will be there too so he said his head will be there so Shoko told her friend that if is both of us out for dinner is ok but with his head along, she don’t want… So after so many times of reject, the head finally called Shoko himself and ask her out… This time, Shoko did go to meet him as she just wants to tell him not to call her anymore… But when she steps in his car, there is no way she can hide from him… Shoko in his car that moment, she asks him where they are going to??? So the head told him that there is a new Hotel which has KTV in it and Shoko was so mad that she asked him to pull over at here but the head threaten her that if “you listen to me and be my girl, your dad will be save for not paying the money he own us… If not, he will still needs to pay us the money and I will tells him how ‘GOOD’ is his daughter is….” For not hurting her family, she became the head’s girl and will be going to Love Hotel with him every night… If she doesn’t obey the head, the head will hit her as hard as possible until the bleed drip out…

That was her life from Baby to earliest twenties… If you guys want to know more about this story, go and buy your own to find out the rest of it of her life… Will stop here for the story if not no one will going to buy her story to read it…

Last Wednesday did went to watch Twilight with my sister, brother, Sandy and Marni at Marina Square… The main actor Robert Pattinson was so charming in the show… The show is so nice to watch… My youngest sister went to bought the storybook but had been out of stock for most of the bookstore but lucky, we found the book at Bishan Popular… So she bought it without a second thought…. And for the younger sister, she is going to buy the DVD once it is released… All my sisters are crazy for the movie and me too… If is not that guy acted, will the show be nice??? But for my friend, Marni she is so crazy for that guy and had watched the movie for 4th times and even the storybooks she also had read all of it without 4 days… She is crazy for that guy and even wanted a boyfriend who is a vampire and charming and rich at the same time…

Me got to go for my lunch and will stop now… Will blog in anytime round….

~HiRoKo~

~101~

2008-12-11T16:38:00.001+08:00

What a day for me… I finally wake up form my dream, that guy is not my type of coffee or tea… I finally see the way he treat his own relationship… Now he might be with this particular girl who I know but I am not yet confirm about this matter and I don’t wish to know… For what I know, the girl is in a relationship and she and the guy I like are like having 暧昧 which make me look down on both of them…

Are they mature enough to think what they want and what they don’t want…? They are older than me but why do they have to do such a thing… But lucky is that I finally see the true colour of the guy… But we still friends as I never ever confess to him at all… Be friend is always better to be his girlfriend… But if he with the girl, just wish him all the best and I won’t care about him… Is his wish to have someone who is in a relationship…. Is he a fool or what???

Damn angry of what he do now… I only now wish to have a suitable guy for myself… So wait for my chance to come… Got to go back to work now.. will write in another time…

~HiRoKo~

~100~

2008-11-10T10:50:00.002+08:00

Another blog of mine… Maybe my friend is right… Maybe my love to the someone is a crush… Won’t last long… After the thought of mine at yesterday night…. As he thinking of patching up with his ex-girlfriend… Even I know my chance is slim but I already bought the card before I know about it… And I also just want him to know my feeling and that’s all… But anyway if he thinking to patch back with her, just will wish him all the best and must have 辛福… Will want him to know there are always some friends out there for him when he needs help or someone to talk to…

But I really rather being loved than love someone… So I will still be waiting for the someone special to me to love me and be with me… Truly say, I really want someone to be with me as I just don't like to go out with my friends whenever their topic will always surround with she and her partner and when they are with their partner but me will always alone even I have some guy friends who are single but I still feel lonely as I am the only girl who is still single… I know I say so can be childish but this wish is belongs to my deep down of my heart…

Hopefully I can find the辛福 of mine this coming few years…

~HiRoKo~

~99~

2008-11-07T14:26:00.001+08:00

Here is another blog… Yesterday went out playing badminton with my colleagues at Radin Mas Community Centre for a hour of game… We have a lot of fun in there… And now I am on the way to slim down as much as I can… I won’t stop this time round as I want back my previous figure… When on our way back, we send Nic home and we were happily talking inside the car… Then we saw a girl look like Mei Yi’s friend, forget her name… Sorry… But isn’t she at all…. Then Ray start to say where ‘big’ as Marni say the girl look smaller than Mei Yi’s Friend… Then I say ‘Wa Lau’ why guys are always like that de… Then He and Gabriel say ‘NO’ not all the guys are like that then they say if the girl got look, doesn’t mean what is her size…

But I don’t believe with them as normally guys will look for pretty girl and have good figure so I think of confess to him also make me so worry as I scare he will surely run away from me even if I want to continue to be his friend… HOW???!!!! Can we still be the previous as friend and not strangers????

Dear Someone Special, even I know you have someone in your mind now but I still want to tell you I have fall in love with you because of your caring and loving act… Even you won’t accept my love, I don’t mind as I just want you to know you are special to me… Like/love someone is not a crime so you can’t force me not to like or love you… But hopefully you won't run away to me and ignore me as I still want to be your friend… Thanks for being as a friend in my life, I will remember you even we know each other for less than a year but I still hope to know you more and closely to you…

But I got a feeling now that he know a bit but he choose not to believe it… Will he accept me??? Will he run away from me??? Will he ignore it???? But anywhere whatever answer he gives me, I must take it… Got to stop and back to work…

~HiRoKo~

~98~

2008-11-06T11:33:00.001+08:00

Here is another blog of mine… I feel so tired of my work load and working environment… I actually sometimes don’t really like one of my colleagues who is an uncle to me… He likes to be busybody and like to ‘Shoot’ people to death… He always likes to say me even he is just joking but I just totally don’t like it… So I just keep quiet and can’t be bothering of what he says… Sorry if I hurt someone here… But I just want to say out…

Now all my friends are busy and I just don’t have a close friend to talk about even Marni too as she is far from me and our private time is getting lesser… I feel I am totally not right here and always don’t feel ahead for my work… As for me now, I am always keeping things and won’t want to say out to anyone else… As I just too tired for my life even I did went home and tell my mum about it but I still feel I am not right… My life is full of rubbish for this year…

First I lost my wallet, second I lost my friendship, third I lost my relationship and lastly I lost the faith in myself… Why there are always so many people die but why not me… Even I got so many wishes which I have been done but I don’t deserve to be living on… Why there are always people like to be busybody and went in to someone’s life… WHY??!!!! Should I be happier whenever my heart is crying…? I know I had been mood swing up and down as I just don’t know what I want now…

Even my friends surround me always know me as a happy go lucky girl but I am not… I just don’t like to show what is actually my feeling is in my deep down heart… Even I told them I don’t really mind I break up with him or I lost a friend… But in my deep heart, what actually comes across is “Do I Still Love Him??” “Can I Let Him Go???” “Does This Friend Means a lot To Me??” “Do I Really Mean What I Say??”… But I just choose to say things the other way round to make my life easier but that is wrong…. I still get hurt for what they have done to me…

Should I continue to confess to him or stop it as I don’t want to get hurt again…? I just want a guy to love me more than I do… People can say me selfish but I don’t mind… I just want my life to be easier and happier… Can all those people around me go away and leave me alone… I dun want to be hurt anymore…

For me I am that type of girl easily make friends with someone or easily fall in love with someone but I am always the one get hurt the most because I put in more feeling than anyone else…. But there are always someone will try to hurt me in all kinds of way… But last of all, if I hurt someone here, A BIG SORRY TO YOU as I don’t mean to hurt anyone here…

~HiRoKo~

U - Super Junior M

2008-10-29T00:05:00.000+08:00

Super Junior M - U

Super Junior M - Me(迷)

2008-10-29T00:00:00.007+08:00

Super Junior M - Me(迷)Korean Version

Super Junior M - Me(迷)Chinese Version

稻香 - 周杰伦

2008-10-28T23:01:00.001+08:00

稻香 - 周杰伦

给我一首歌的时间- 周杰伦

2008-10-28T22:59:00.000+08:00

给我一首歌的时间- 周杰伦

说好的幸福呢MV 完整清晰版

2008-10-28T22:55:00.001+08:00

~说好的幸福呢MV 完整清晰版~

~97~

2008-10-24T11:45:00.001+08:00

Another blog again here… I feel so moody now and I don’t know who should I go to??? Can I take half day leave as I really don’t wish to work now but can’t… If not, I will not having enough money to pay for my school fee… I know I shouldn’t put all my thinking to myself and making myself so irritating… Maybe everyone out there will think I am irritating and silly but I think I having a mild depression now… I like this guy also don’t have to gut to say as I scare to lose so keep to myself and I thinking not to tell him but don’t know whether is it worth I doing this… Will I regret??? Should I tell him…? What if I come back to this office to work again and how am I going to face him after I tell him… Will he hide away from me and wouldn’t want to be my friend… Have a crush for someone is so torturing for me as I never ever try before express my feeling towards a guy… If I really do so, this will be my first time and my last time to express to a guy…

Should I go see a doctor or should I take a long rest… I don’t like to be a failure and that’s why I don’t dare to express out… I know I can’t be with him so I won’t say out… But all my friends keep asking me to express my feelings towards him… Can I do so...? The answer is a “NO” which I long time knows it… No mood now and make me no mood to work and I wish to talk to someone now but who can I talk to and whose shoulder wants to lend me… Now I do talk to a guy from my office but he seen like getting misunderstanding from my words… All my girlfriends have their partner to lean to but me I only have wall to lean against… This whole year is not my year but why do gods make me meet Gabriel this year and can progress to a higher level which I want to have…

Oh yah today is my brother’s birthday… Happy 13^th year old birthday my baby brother… Stop thinking of the above matter… Wait for the time to arrive and I will know the result of this matter… Hope this will brighter my life for the next year…

~HiRoKo~

~96~

2008-10-17T10:44:00.002+08:00

Today is Gabriel’s birthday… Happy birthday Gabriel!!!!! Hope your wishes you just wish will come true… But is an unhappy moment for him too… His friend’s girlfriend had just passed away… She accidentally knocks against the door and after awhile feel giddy and want to vomit and the next moment is that she fainted and that goes her life… Life is so precious and don’t regret anything which you never do it before… I have a problem which I wish to settle it but just don’t know how to say it out without any regret…

Know that if you like someone, you got to say it out but I just can’t… He is someone which I slowly fall in love with but think that he won’t want to have a girlfriend like me… Did try to give him a hint but I feel that he don’t get what I want to say… Maybe this is my fate for knowing him here and get to be his friend is already enough and knowing him is fine I am happy enough… Get to see him, is a happy moment too… Hope he did notice that someone out there is waiting for him… Why I always fall in love with guys who are stone and don’t know how to express himself one… Hope if really this relationship start will be my FINAL relationship… Hasn’t even start, I already thinking of this is my FINAL relationship… Feel so thick skinned of me… All my friends and even my mum also ask me to go express myself to him but I just don’t dare as I am those type of girls which I never ever woo the guys I like… I just like to hide my feeling for the one I like and wish him all the best and get a girl he wish to be with…

Now talk about my previous boyfriend, he is an idiot… He tells me that he like a girl but don’t know how to express himself but before he express, he knows that this girl has a boyfriend and is smoking type which I totally don’t agree with what he doing… All my friends know that he calls me is to tell me he wanted to woo this girl and they are so angry with… Actually I am fine with it but the sad part is he asks me what type of sandals I wearing on that particular day which I went out with him and friend to watch a movie so I told him where I bought it and where can find it… So I ask him why he want to know and who he buying for and he told me that he buying for the girl he like… I was so sad at that moment but I didn’t show to Marni and Gary on that day… But me and him, we are totally over and will be friend for our rest of our life… Hope he can find someone better than me and not someone can ruin his life… Hope I will get someone better than him and make me feel I’m so happy to have him with me especially this someone now I know…

Got to stop now and get back to my work now…

~HiRoKo~

~95~

2008-10-07T11:30:00.000+08:00

Woo, so long didn’t blog so here is a new blog… Had been single for 2 months, but had been in confused by him…. Actually last Saturday, I went out with Sandy to collect our Diploma Certificate and after we collected, we went to Expo for the Robinson Sales to buy some stuff. I did bought some stuff… But Sandy did bought a lot of stuffs… After that, we went to Orchard for a movie with Marni and Xiao Hei… After we broke up, this is the first outing we went out. He did keep asking me out but I always not that free so can’t accompany him… But this time we did meet up… We two reach orchard around 4.00 plus so we went to the bank first to bank in money and after that, we walk to Cinerleisure to buy the tickets first while waiting for them… After we bought it, we walk around in the shopping mall… After walking and the time reach 5.00pm, I told Sandy come let’s wait outside… When we reach outside, Xiao Hei called and guesses what… I saw him standing outside the mall and I was just in front of him… Is like I got that feeling, he was out there waiting for us… My six senses told me so…. I walk towards him, he asks me how I know he reach here and why I came out… So I told him, I came out to wait for my friend and not him… Then while we waiting for Marni, he wanted to fold up his sleeves so I help him so… But I find that we both are like nothing had happen before and we are just like back as normal… Why I say so is because we will argue over small things and what he like and dislike I still know… Sandy and Marni also find it weird… Whenever we walk around, he will just stand behind of me like last time… When all of us reach, we went to Burger King for our dinner and he asks me to help him to buy the foods again like we always do it… After that, we went to watch our movie, House Bunny at 6.30pm… When we walk in, I was in between Sandy and Marni and Xiao Hei is behind Sandy… So Sandy actually gives me a look of wanted to change seat with me but she didn’t… Xiao Hei in cinema that moment is like hinting me to sit beside him… I also don’t know is my thinking is right… The girls can sense it too that Xiao Hei is trying to tell me something… So I take the first step to message him whether does he has anything wanted to tell me but he doesn’t reply me at all and I actually keep thinking of what he actually want to tell me… How I wish I know it…

Yesterday I went to eat the Seafood at Turf City with Marni, Alex, Gabriel and Nicolas… We five of them spend $159.10 on the Foods we order… Is so delicious… Anyone can go have a try at the Unique Seafood Mart and Owen Restaurant… Weekdays will have 50% discount and weekends will have 30% discount on the SEAFOOD itself only… We have a lot of fun at there… We order Oyster, Seabass, Tiger Prawns, Lala, Crabs and fried rice etc…… But the Oyster which we order only me, Nicolas and Gabriel eat it but the two guys only eat one of it and the rest of it is eaten by me as the Oyster had a funky taste of it… Because is from Canada but I still prefer from Australia… Never mind, I still got the chance to eat my favourite Oyster is good for enough…. We will be going to eat buffet the next time round… But when we will be eating, is a very big question mark… As we still not sure yet…. Yummy… Got to go back and work so end of my blog…

~HiRoKo~

~94~

2008-09-20T11:04:00.002+08:00

So long haven't blog so now here is the blog... Had been sick for one week but on Thursday until now my fever is up and down... I miss someone there to look after for me... Won't have someone there to care for me now and ever... But i dream of a dream which i feel i had been missing him for years... But i can't win him back to me as before and this guy is not my ex-boyfriend but is someone who i do like him before and the guy is Ray... Maybe we are not destiny to be together and now he and his girlfriend are so lovely now and ever... So i can't do anything now but to miss him here...

I still remember the dream is happen at a chalet which organize by my mum and i invite all my ITE Simei friends and which surprise me is that why i invite Ray, his girlfriend and two of his girlfriend's friend to my chalet.... When i saw him, i was so happy and i remember that he was with me and Sandy walking around the chalet and he left his girlfriend and friend at the chalet there... We will like flirting around and he told me something that he can't stand his girlfriend anymore so he will think of breaking up with her and Sandy is like knowing ray for years too as we three had alot of talk while we will walking... I remember i telling them about Xiao hei called me and talk to me which really happen in my real life yesterday.... Xiao Hei did called me and ask me how to woo a girl he like now and i am not angry with him now as i know we are past and he yesterday did say thanks to me for those memories i gave him... Back to my dream, i know that dream is only a dream to me but after the dream, i like missing him badly and wish to tell him but i don't think is a good idea to do it... So i decide to blog in before i forget it....

I did regret of not choosing him instead of being with Xiao Hei... But that is past so i can't do anything now... So i will continue my life and seeking for my Mr. Right....

~HiRoKo~

~93~

2008-08-24T02:03:00.003+08:00

So long never blog so is time to blog... Have receive alot of presents for my 21th birthday which happen at 16th of August 2008 at Aloha Loyang Sea View Bungalow 16... Have alot of funs there and will upload some of the photos here... I really want to thanks my auntie alot as she does the cake for me is a Hello Kitty Key shape Cake which i love it so much... Thanks and a big hug for her...

Today, 23th of August i went to Flyer and Night Safari with my friends; Marni, Nicolas and also Mei Yi... Actually i had a small crush on Nicolas now but sadly is that he had a lovely girlfriend at Switzerland as he is now working at the same department as me... Flyer had alot of photos taken there and will upload some of the photos when my friend send me and also the night safari too... We are planning to go to the Zoo the next month once Marni got the pass from our company... Going to KL soon... So happy...

If Nicolas has no girlfriend, is so wonderful... Haha, my dream and will not happen in real life... He won't like this type of girl which i belongs to... He is a cute and charming guy as he had a pair of eyes which can talk... He is the same age as me and i am so happy that we today send him home, we did went to his apartment to see... Is actually a bungalow but the owner renovate to a so called Hostel into a few rooms and he is living at the second floor and is the very first room... When the moment we step in, i love the room so much... The bed and everything are totally new and the bed is so nice to sleep on when the first sight i see it... But he stay quite a distance from us as he stay at Kembangan and his rental is abit higher than outside which i won't say out the actual amount...

Photos got to see from http://hirokoakaxiaowei.multiply.com and i will try to send to you guys once i receive all from my friends.

~HiRoKo~

~92~

2008-08-14T22:58:00.000+08:00

Today is 14^th of August 2008 and I receive two gifts from my colleagues today… One is from the whole department of the current I working in and the other one is bought by Alex who always treats me as a little sister to him… They bought pendant for me and the shape is like a pen… will upload the photos later on for you guys to see… And Alex bought for me is heart shaped pendant with the necklaces… Thanks a lot to all my colleague and especially Alex… Will wear it often one… I am so surprise when Alex passes me the gift…

Left one more day to my birthday chalet and today have to go to buy those dried stuff first after my work… Will be very tired for this three days, Sunday will be my resting day before I start work on Monday again… On that day, there will be a special guest to come… Just started to know him and he look cute ad he same age as me… But my colleague says his leg look so short and got tummy… Ha-ha… The special guest is not my boyfriend or what ok… Are just a normal friend and colleague to me… Tomorrow I am going to prepare a lot of things in my chalet before Saturday to come… Hopefully everything will be under control by me…

Today has less things to talk about and will stop now and blog again the next time… Oh ya, and also I will upload the photos in later…

~HiRoKo~

~Photos~

2008-08-14T22:17:00.004+08:00

~Me & Marni~

~5th of August 2008~

~12th of August 2008~

~21st Present from Mary, Marni, Sharon, Nadiah & Mei Yi~

~By Alex, Gabriel, Andrew, Fong Yin, Yvonne, Johnson, Suan Choo, Irene & Ester~

~By Alex~

~HiRoKo~

~91~

2008-08-13T10:53:00.000+08:00

Today is 13th of August 2008 and have just pass my birthday… Feel like I am going to be old soon… Yesterday have fun in the office as my previous department help me celebrate at Super Dog during lunch time… they buy me a Adidas Candy Watch which I wanted long ago… Is my favourite colour white... So happy to have it and also they buy me a block of cake which have hello kitty character on it which they buy at Polar Cake Shop… Thanks lot girls… I also love the card they buy for me and write in their blessing to me… Will upload those photos yesterday we take in… Yesterday a lot of them message me, even my sister’s friend, Keller and also my previous job colleague, Mei Yen too… Mei Yi my pervious colleague called Marni during lunch time as she don’t have my number so she called her to just to say happy birthday to me… So touch by her… Thanks gal… My dearest sister, Shili and brother, Wei Jie send me a MMS… They take their photo and sing a happy birthday song to me… So cute of them… Will put in the sound and photos for you guys to see… See how cute they are… Even I don’t have a boyfriend around; I do have so many nice and caring family and friends around… And also Joyce message me, Yi wei message me and Jia Sin too… Thanks girls and guys for sending me your blessing…. And also Sandy who send birthday wishes today which is ok…

Yesterday when to watch The Dark Knight with Marni and Gabriel at Marina Square, the show is so excellent… Love Batman and Joker a lot… But sad is Joker had passed away months back for eating the wrong medicine at his New York Apartment… Guess you guys will know it when I just say like that… It appeared in the news months back as is very big news… At first I thought the Hollywood Actor died is who but after The Dark Knight show is out then I know the actor died is actually Joker… Sad right… He really acts like a crazy person in the show better than the Batman… But Batman is still the Hero… At first I am not keen to watch this movie one because I don’t really like this type of movie very much but after my colleague, Marni and Gabriel say is very nice… Make me so keen to go and watch but lucky they want to watch again so I got the chance to watch with them…. Will buy the DVD for my brother to see when is out… I love the part is when the Joker wears the nurse uniform and wanted to bomb the whole Gotham Hospital… Overall the movie is nice… Got to go back to work…

~HiRoKo~

~90~

2008-08-12T10:35:00.001+08:00

Today is my 21^st birthday… Guess who the first to wish me Happy Birthday… is my dearest Xiao Wei, She wish me at 1.48am using message… Second is Kent who wishes me at 9.56am using message too... Anyway Happy Birthday to myself… So fast 21^st year old, soon or later will reach 30^th year old… For this year my birthday wishes are wish my family, relatives and friends stay happy always and have a good health always… Second is wish I have a prospects ahead… Third is secret…

Today will be going to watch The Dark Knight with two of my colleagues… Hopefully today will be a pleasant day for me… Just receive an email from my colleague, Gary about our life… Is very meaningful to see it… A professor uses a mayonnaise Jar to describe how you can handle your life… I like the way he describe it, is so meaningfully for those people who don’t know how to cherish their surrounding… If there is no family, friends, relatives and those passer-by, your life will be so black and white… Because of them, our life is full of colors… Will upload the story in here for you guys to see… Is always not full in our life without anyone… So people out there, this is my don’t know many times of advice to tell you guys to cherish your loved one.. Don’t wait until you lose it then you will regret…

For my past few weeks, have keep watching those movies that the lead actor/actress will lose their loved one without cherish them so nicely… First is the Ten Promises To My Dog, the lead actress, Fukuda Mayuko acted as Akari who is the owner of Golden Retriever named Sock in this movie. Second is the Money Not Enough 2, is about a mother who had three sons and their mother fall sick when the three sons started to bankrupt and their family had turn upside down and they can’t look after their mother because of money and no enough time to stay at home as they have to restart again to earn back those money… In the end their mother died because of wanted to save her granddaughter… That why people always say mothers are always being there for their kids whenever they need her… But their kids will always forget about their mothers… So I told myself, I have to be more filial to my mum from now on and also to my dad too… As they put a lot of effort in to watch us grow up… We can’t be so selfish that they should give us money when we are growing that time… We must also think that they always have their problems that they won’t tell us one as they don’t want us to worry with them and they want us to concentrate in our studies or works until we are stable in… So parents are super hero and three cheers for them… Got to go back to work again… Will write in the next time…

Here is the Story about the Professor with the Mayonnaise Jar :-

Mayonnaise Jar

When things in your life seem
almost too much to handle,
When 24 Hours in a day is not enough,
Remember the mayonnaise jar
and 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in
front of him.
When the class began, wordlessly,
He picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar
And proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students
if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the
jar.
He shook the jar lightly.
The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls.

He then asked
the students again
If the jar was full.
They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand And poured it into the jar.
Of course, the sand filled up everything else.
He asked once more if the jar was full.
The students responded
with an unanimous 'yes.'
The professor then produced
two cups of coffee from under the table
and poured the entire contents
into the jar, effectively
filling the empty space between the sand.
The students laughed.

'Now,' said the professor,
as the laughter subsided,
'I want you to recognize that
this jar represents your life.

The golf balls are the important things - Family, children, health,
friends, and favourite passions -- things that if everything else was
lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, house, and
car.

The sand is everything else --
the small stuff'.

'If you put the sand into the jar first,'
he continued,
'there is no room for
the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life.

If you spend all your time
and energy on the small stuff,
you will never have room for
the things that are
Important to you.

So...
pay attention to the things
that are critical to your happiness.
Play With your children.
Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your partner out to dinner.
Take time out with your friends.

There will always be time
to clean the house
and fix the washing machine'.

'Take care of the golf balls first --
the things that really matter.
Set your priorities.
the rest is just sand.'

One of the students raised her hand
and inquired what the coffee represented.

The professor smiled.
'I'm glad you asked'...

It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem,
there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.'

~HiRoKo~

~89~

2008-08-11T10:18:00.001+08:00

Finally I have the answer from someone... Before the person gives me answer, I already know the answer and I don’t feel sad at all as I know the answer he gives me is the answer I want.. As I want him to be happy with the person he love.. May you and her be forever and more loving… Give you and her all my blessing… What I told you guys are that after he gives me the answer, I will concentrate in my works and studies now on.. Will not find any guy to be my boyfriend but if someone do appear now, I will still be friend with him first and know him more before we start the new life of us.. Hopefully my life will be smoothly from now onwards…

Friday, I see the Olympic opening and was so grand.. I love the opening so much and especially the fireworks… So nice, if I was at there, the feeling will be different from now… Saturday, didn’t went to see the fireworks as this year is different.. I was alone as this year is me myself without any partner… And I don’t wish to go as all those years I went to see is with him.. My mouth did say don’t feel anything but for this particular fireworks, I mind as fireworks to me is a promise for a guy to a girl… I love the feeling of someone being there for me when I was at the fireworks… Now me and him as become friends… He will ask me out to accompany him to go to Sentosa for sun-tanning or send me all those blessing messages… I love the way he now treat me as not like that time, we two are in relationship but as become so stranger to each other… Hate that feeling…

Saturday, we went shopping with Donavan, Sandy and Xiao Wei.. Actually Joyce and Lionel should be coming too but we never go to see the fireworks so in the end they also never come and find us and watch the fireworks too… That day we have fun… Donavan spend around $97.30 for clothing and Pizza Hut for our dinner… Sandy spend around $37.90 for shopping and Pizza Hut too… Xiao Wei spend around $32.70 for a pair of jeans from E-base and Pizza Hut for dinner… Me spend around $95.60 for my shopping and Pizza Hut… Yummy… Spend until so much I also never notice it… So fast, this coming Friday is my Birthday Chalet and tomorrow is my 21^st birthday… Hope my wishes will come true this last quarter of year and have a great year ahead… Today is two of my friends’ birthday which is Kent and Gary… Happy birthday guys.. May all your wishes come true and stay happy always…

~HiRoKo~

~Super Junior at MMA 2008~

2008-08-08T21:13:00.004+08:00

~Super Junior Won the MMA Korean Artist~

~Super Junior - A Man In Love with Don' Don' Intro~

~Super Junior - Mirror~

~All happen on 2th of August 2008 at Genting for the MTV Asia Awards 2008, Enjoy it~

~HiRoKo~

~Super Junior M - 越播越开心~

2008-08-07T23:57:00.002+08:00

Super Junior M - 越播越开心

~Enjoy It~

~HiRoKo~

~Super Junior H - Pajama Party~

2008-08-07T22:23:00.002+08:00

Super Junior H - Pajama Party

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ttn9GvCrKRQ

It so cute... Must see it...

~HiRoKo~

~88~

2008-08-06T22:12:00.004+08:00

Yesterday guess what?? My ex-boyfriend which is Xiao Hei ask me out today for going to Sentosa as he need to go for tanned.. Yesterday went to watch movie Money Not Enough 2 with 9 of my colleagues and guess what... Quite a surprise that the movie did touch my heart and up to 5 stars, i give the moive 5 stars... Can say this show is a comedy but at the last part, i and my colleagues cried as the mother of the three sons died because of wanting to save her granddaughter.. I was so touch by the way she sacrifice her own life to save her... After the movie, we went to Buger King to have our dinner cum supper as is around 9.30pm.. after our dinner, we took some photos at there and also went up to the third floor to take more photos.. Will upload the photos once i recieve it... Yesterday reach home around 11.56pm and also being scare by my father who stand at the doorstep and open up his eyes so wide.. Going prawning with them soon... And also on my birthday, my two colleague, Marni & Gabriel are going to accompany me to go to watch movie again.. We going to watch The Dark Knight.. Can't wait for Tuesday to come...

This morning, my mum tod me about a girl who wants to break up with her boyfriend story.. Is a true story as it appears in the news yesterday... They both are Poly Students... Story being as they both went to East Coast beach to talk and they start to quarrel.. The guy suddenly pull the girl's hand into the sea and want to commit sucide together but the girl don't want so she keep shouting for help and guess what... Got a passer-by was there but the sad thing is that the passer-by is a Indian and he don't understand what is the girl shouting so he never care but until a while later, he start to find it very weird so he decided to find some passer-by to help him to find the girl and he saw the girl was floating on the sea so he and some passer-by went to save her but lucky is the girl is still alive but was unconscious but the guy died because of a relationship...

So please people whenever you or your friend broke up with his girlfriend or her boyfriend, don't ever think of commit sucide as this is illeagal in Singapore and also it will hurts your surrounding.. Break up is a small matter, as the world is still there for you and you have more choices to choose on... Why have to give up on your precious life... I just broke up with my boyfriend so i have to commit sucide and hurt my surrounding and even him because of me... Like that is it worth it... Is a NO so don't try it..

Here is the cinema tickets and will upload the photos here too once i got it...

~HiRoKo~

~87~

2008-08-04T22:44:00.004+08:00

Last Saturday went out with Xiao Wei and Sandy to Bugis to shop and actually Wan Qian is coming but last minutes she had to work until 5.oo plus so in the end she never meet us... We had alot of fun at there... Had alot of things to talk to and buy alot of stuffs like my clothes for the party, friends' present and my sutff too.... Will upload the photos later on...

Today, Monday blue but i just don't like to work under my new boss as she don't know how to handle things carefully... Actually i am help this two colleagues under a specific accounts but in the end i also have to do other stuff too... So tiring and making me under so many stress.. My gastric will be pain under stress too... Now at my room to blog this current blog as my sister finally set up the router and i can easily use it whenever i am...

Just went to my friend's blog to get the photos and also to read their blog and found out that my friend went to the MTV Asia Awards to see and guess what he was so near to Super Junior... How i wish i was there... But Super junior did won the awards... SO happy for them... But still feel sad now... Nevermind, if they ever come again, i will surely go this time round with my sister or someone else... Here is those photos of the things we bought at last Saturday:-

Overall, i had alot of fun shopping... Shopping is the best...

~HiRoKo~

~You are stuck in my heart~

2008-08-02T00:00:00.000+08:00

You are stuck in my heart - C21

You are stuck in my heart
Like counting a million stars
For that many reasons you are

Can't you tel
lyou've been all over me
like a spell - I know
(I never wanna let you go)

Can't you see
you've been changing the
world around me - I know
(I never wanna let you go)

If you hold me close enough
I can whisper you the words
If the distace is to far
I can't do nothing,cuz

You are stuck in my heart
and we can go aywhere
Whatever the reason you are
so stuck n my heart
Like counting a million stars
for that many reasons you are

Can't deny
since I met you that day
I've been blind - to see
( Now I wanna know for real)

Inside me
I'm afraid to wake up
from a dream - and see
(It never really happened to me)

If you hold me close enough
I can whisper you the words
If the distance is to far
I can't do nothing, cuz

You are stuck in my heart
and we can go anywhere
whatever the reason you are
so stuck in my heart
like counting a million stars
for that many reasons you are

You are......like a dream
so deep inside of me

You are......the reason that I never sleep

You are......stuck in my heart

You are

Can't you tell
you've been all over me like a spell
(I will never let you go, I will
never let you go no, no)

Can't you see
you've been changing the world around me
(I don't wanna let you
go, no I'll never let you
go no, no)

I can't do nothing, cuz
You are stuck in my heart
and we can go anywhere
whatever the reason you are
so stuck in my heart
like counting a million stars
for that many reasons you are

~HiRoKo~

~86~

2008-08-01T09:28:00.002+08:00

Today 1st of August, actually can go to MTV Asia Awards with my friend but now can’t… How I wish I am at there to support Super Junior… Counting down to my birthday and the chalet too… So fast August and I going to 21 year old… How I wish I never grow up and always be a kid to my parents… Oh, yesterday went to Far East to find my dress again and I find a dress that looks like I am an anime character but I didn’t buy because I still looking for the better… I quite like the anime dress… And yesterday went to eat claypot chicken rice at the Far East level 5 there and is so nice… And when we sit down, we saw a newspaper which was on the 28th of July and the news was so interesting... Guess what?? Is about a guy want to propose to his girlfriend at the school graduation ceremony which was held at NTU... According to his words, no one had do this before in NTU at their graduation ceremony so he want to be the first to do it which he thinks is cool… They know each other from NUS as they actually was lab partner during their school time.. The guy is 29 year old and girl 27 year old… They had been dating for 7 years and the guy finally made his decision to propose to her… So romantic right… They went back to study at NTU for their master that why the guy want to propose on the graduation ceremony and the guy also plan with the planner for months back… Say about this, It reminds me about yesterday…

Yesterday, the wedding planner called me again and guesses what I actually told her that my wedding is not to be going on anymore… So she asks really huh?? And I told her yes, we had decided to break off so the package we will not continue… So she say when you free then you come down and change to other packages like your own photo shoot or next time if I got a boyfriend, also can change to take a couple photo shoot… Maybe I will wait for guy to appear and maybe will take the couple photo shoot… As if take own photo shoot will make me feel weird weird de… Hopefully god will accept my request for having a boyfriend… I had already accepted my punish from you so now is time for you to give me present god… Please I beg you… 4 more months to be a better year for me ahead… Sylvia fighting… Three cheers for Myself.. Jia you Jia you Jia you…

Will blog the next time… Got to go back to work… Miss my friends and especially someone…

~HiRoKo~

~85~

2008-07-31T09:43:00.000+08:00

Another day of my life without a boyfriend... Ha-ha... Who will ever want me as his girlfriend... I now am looking for someone whose birthday is at August or on my birthday itself one... 12 of August... Need not same age as me can be older than me but not too old... Ha-ha... Now I like too desperate for guy but I am not... As I know that I can live without guy... After my birthday, what answer comes to me I will accept and will still be happy as before... So don’t worry... We will always be friends and there when you need someone shoulder, I will always be there for you and hopefully you will also be there for me and is obviously free of charge de… After yesterday night, I think very carefully.. As I don’t wish to lose a friend like you… You know who you are and don’t ask me who is the person… I won’t say de…

Today is my colleague Mei Yi last day... We will miss her a lot but today we will be going for shopping with Marni who is my best bubby I have... She is always there for me when I need someone... Lucky this company I have her with me if not I will be so boring.. I now on my music from my hand phone and guess what the song now playing and is my favorite song which is You are the one by C21.. I too fall in love with this song as the lyric of the meaning is so prefect for a couple who is breaking up but the guy went back the girl for patching up as he too love the girl too much.. Anyone please go listen to this song.. Is a nice song..

Saturday the MTV Asia Awards is going to start... Hope Super Junior will win the Korea artist awards and all of them are coming as they will always come to those awards with some of them only and not all will come… Hopefully they will come as a group… Super Junior fighting… Jia you Jia you Jia you….

Got to go back to work now... will blog the next time.. See ya… And can’t wait for my 21st birthday chalet to come…

~HiRoKo~

~84~

2008-07-30T10:24:00.000+08:00

I just check online for studying at Japan during my work time and guess what I need 12,000 plus dollars to go there for study, stay and some expenses. It a huge amount but I still wish to go there for my future study even someone will stop me for going but I still really hope so… The someone will know who she/he is… Don’t ask me who… I won’t say out de.. If the someone really want to stop me for going, you have to do something to make me for not going.. You should know what thing I am talking about..

I now at office, my colleague who sit next to me play those oldest love song and I love them much.. Can say I love this type of music because I am a girl who fall in love easily and easily feel touch when someone just send me a nice or romantic message.. But when I try to forget someone, I will need months or years to forget.. Now I just broke up with Eng Kiat because I had already get use my life without him as I know I can live this world on myself and he also can do it because after so many months of separating, we both know what is the right route to go to.. We since like a married couple and decided to divorce.. We went through separation period and after separating for “3 years”, we are consider divorce.. It seen so drama to me for what we are doing now..

After I broke up with him, I can say I didn’t think of him much now because I now had a lot of things to handle so will have no time to think of him for doing such a thing to me.. But hopefully someone will appear in front of me to be my partner for the entire life time.. As I actually is tired of relationship after what I been through.. Not saying he not good to me but is those months of I suffering there and he doesn’t feel anything.. Maybe he will feel something but Is not to me.. As those months back, my six sense did told me that he is having an affair outside but I just want to ignore and think that he will still come back to me no matter what happen but I was wrong.. So I just totally give up on him..

May god bless me for having a relationship which I long to have again… After this final relationship, if we really don’t work out fine.. I will think at that moment of time, I won’t find another relationship until I reach the social to start working as a full time worker…

Here is the rate for Japanese Yen to Singapore Dollar:-

Japanese Yen Exchange Rate Singapore Dollar

1 000 000 0.01266 12,657.96370

~HiRoKo~

~You are the one~

2008-07-29T19:38:00.005+08:00

I was so happening to pass my friend's blog and happen to see this lyrics and find it so meaningful so i copy from my friend's blog and upload here.. Just a minutes ago, my ex-boyfriend message me to tell me can promise him to go and find a boyfriend for myself and take good care of myself.. I reply, you also must take good care and find a girl that suit him too... And also thanks for those memories he gives me and those love he gives me for the past few years... I never regret loving him.. Thanks Eng Kiat.. Must take good care of yourself ok.. I will take good care of myself one.. Here is the lyrics:-

You are the one - C21

It's early in the morning
soon another day will dawn
I can't wait to feel your arms
around me again

I believe that we could
lay down the world
together we could live
the dream that never ends

Open up the door
just a little more
baby let me in

You are the one, You are the one
who can make moments last forever
The one that makes the sun shine
where ever you go

why make it harder, than it has to be
just listen, I'll give you love
if you'll give me your heart

Everytime I near you
time is standing still
there's nothing you can't fix
with your heavenly smile

I would never leave you
my love is for life
taking things for granted
was never my style

Just give a little love
say you'll never stop
I'll do anything

You are the one, You are the one
who can make moments last forever
The one that makes the sun shine
where ever you go
why make it harder, than it has to be
just listen, I'll give you love
If you'll give me your heart

And I'll do anything
if you give me your heart
ahh ahh yeah
I'll do anything

You are the one, You are the one
who can make moments last forever
The one that makes the sun shine
where ever you go

give a little love
say you'll never stop
and I'll do anything
I'll give you love
if you'll give me your heart

ohhhhh ohhhhh

Where ever you go
you are the one
why make it harder, than it has to be
just listen, I'll give you love

if you'll give me your heart

~HiRoKo~

~83~

2008-07-29T19:26:00.001+08:00

Today my mood is up and down don’t know what had happen to me but I know that I like this is because I got some problems need to settle even maybe in the end there is no hope or what, I will still try my best as if you never try, you won’t know what will happen.. But I will definitely have a lot of scar around me as this problem is not an easy problem to settle and I will still want to get myself hurt.. As a Leo, I will want to find out the outcome even I am in the losing end..

But I won’t regret of what I am doing now.. After I broke up with my boyfriend which is just 4 days ago, I don’t feel so hurt now because I just waiting for the right time to say out once I am ready and I also give myself a lot of time to clam and cool down and know he is not the final guy for me.. So I just say out when I feel happy with.. People out there might find me as a play girl but I can say I fall in love very easily but get over a relationship must take time even a short period of relationship… I don’t whether am I doing the right thing now?? Don’t ask me what happen, I will say out when the right time and right place and the outcome I wanted…

So pray hard for my happening and my surrounding people too.. Friends if anything I did before hurt you in the past or future, do forgive me as I have my own feelings and ways to protect myself but at the same time hurting you.. I know whatever we do, we will definitely hurt someone around us de.. Life is like that so no one will know our next future life.. But I still hope the god will fulfills all our dreams come true in the future.. Don’t know why today so many thoughts to say about.. Maybe too much things happen… Will stop now. Blog the next time.. Get back to my work…

~HiRoKo~

~Stick With You~

2008-07-28T20:16:00.002+08:00

Stick With You - PussyCat Dolls

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody is breaking up
Throwing their love away
And I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say [Hey]

Nobody gonna love me better
I'm must stick with you
ForeverNobody gonna take me higher
I'm must stick with you
You know how to appreciate me
I'm must stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I'm must stick with you

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
See the way we ride
In our private lives
Ain't nobody getting in between
I want you to know that you're the only one for me [one for me]
What I'm saying

Nobody gonna love me better
I must stick with you
Forever
Nobody gonna take me higher
I'm must stick with you [nobody]
You know how to appreciate me
I'm must stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I'm must stick with you

And now
Ain't nothing else I can need [nothing else i can need]
And now

I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me
I got you
We'll be making love endlessly
I'm with you (Baby,I'm with you baby)
Baby, you're with me (Baby,You're with me)

So don't you worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you and you know me
and that's all that counts

So don't you worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you and you know me
And that's why i say ,hey

Nobody gonna love me better
I'm must stick with you
Forever
Nobody gonna take me higher
I'm must stick with you
You know how to appreciate me
I'm must stick with you
My baby Nobody ever made me feel this way
I'm must stick with you

Nobody gonna love me better
I'm must stick with you
Forever
Nobody gonna take me higher
I'm must stick with you
You know how to appreciate me
I'm must stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I'm must stick with you

~HiRoKo~

~Always Be My Baby~

2008-07-28T13:05:00.000+08:00

Always Be My Baby - David Cook

We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine

Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die
No!

You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I know that you'll be back girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh
I know that, you'll be right back, babe
Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my my baby....

You'll always be a part of me (you will always be)
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on (we will linger on....)
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

Always be my baby

~HiRoKo~

~Always Be My Baby~

2008-07-28T13:00:00.000+08:00

Always Be My Baby - Mariah Carey

You (repeat)
(Do do doop)
(Do do doop do doop da dum)
(Do do doop dum)
(Do do doop do doop da dum)

We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die
Noooohoh!

You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Boy don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
(Does not repeat it only says it once)
(Do do doop)
(Do do doop do doop da dum)
(Do do doop dum)
(Do do doop do doop da dum)

I ain't gonna cry noooh
And I won't beg you to staaaay
If you're determined to leave booy
I will not stand in your waaaay
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end nooooh ooohh

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Boy don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darlin' cause you'll always be my baby

I know that you'll be back boy
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh
I know that, you'll be right back, babe
Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time
Of time!

You'll always be apart of me (oooohhhh)
I'm part of you indefinitely (oooohhhh)
Boy don't you know you can't escape me (ooooohhhhhh)
Ooh darlin' cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on (and we will linger on)
Time can't erase a feeling this strong (ohhhh)
No way you're never gonna shake me (oh baby)
Ooh darlin' cause you'll always be my baby

You'll always be apart of me (yeah yeah oooohhhh)
I'm part of you indefinitely (oooohhhh)
Boy don't you know you can't escape me (ooooohhhhhh)
Ooh darlin' cause you'll always be my baby (no nooo )
And we'll linger on (you and I will always be)
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me (you & I)
Ooh darlin' cause you'll always be my baby (you & I)
(You & I)
(You & I)
(You & I will always be! )

(Do do doop)
(Do do doop do doop da dum)
(Do do doop dum)
(Do do doop do doop da dum)

You and I will always be
No way your never gonna shake me
No way your never gonna shake me
You and I will always be

~HiRoKo~

~Hate you (Hate U, Love U)~

2008-07-27T15:50:00.001+08:00

Hate you (Hate U, Love U)

I want to hate you
But seeing you so happy next to another person
Is exhausting, now
Not knowing anything
The day I had to send you off
Something that should've been done a long time ago
Having no feelings about it
I tried to erase you
But it wasn't something I could have
Please stay by my side
Nothing has changed, I'm by myself
I trusted that another love would come along but now
It's hard to even breathe
And becomes a bigger problem like this
My loneliness for you, little by little
Doesn't erase and remains
I want to hate you
But your back form of having forgotten me
I'm tired of protecting you too, now
Day by day,
I didn't like living so weakly
I try to change the way I am right now
But I can't
I tried to erase you
But it wasn't something I could have
Please stay by my side
Nothing has changed, I'm by myself
I trusted that another love would come along but now
It's hard to even breathe
And becomes a bigger problem like this
My loneliness for you, little by little
I tried to let you go without regret
Trusting I'd be able to stand it,
But the love that's still left
Just gets deeper
This weary loneliness
Cannot bear it day to day anymore
Slowly you become despicable
Nothing has changed, I'm by myself
I trusted that another love would come along but now
It's hard to even breathe
And becomes a bigger problem like this
My loneliness for you, little by little

~HiRoKo~

~Miwo (Hate U, Love U)~

2008-07-27T15:41:00.001+08:00

Miwo (Hate U, Love U)

Miwohago shiphunde
darun saram gyotheso
hengboghan norul bonun gotdo
jichyoboryosso ijen
amu gotdo morunche
nol boneya hetdon nal
nomudo oren iriraso
nukkim jocha objiman
norul jiuryo essodo bwasso
hajiman issul su obnun irin gol
jebal ne gyothe issojwo
dallajin gosun obso honjain gol
tto darun sarangi ol gorago
na midobwatjiman ijen
sumshwinun god majo himi dulgo
irohge khojyoman gajanha
norul hyanghan ne guriumi jogumsshig
jiwojiji anhun che nama isso
miwohago shiphunde
nal ijun duthan noui dwid mosubman
jikhinun gotdo jichyoboryosso ijen
haru haru him obshi
sanun nega shirhosso
iron ne mosub bakkuryogo
noryoghajiman andwe
norul jiuryo essodo bwasso
hajiman issul su obnun irin gol
jebal ne gyothe issojwo
dallajin gosun obso honjain gol
tto darun sarangi olgorago
na midobwatjiman ijen
sumshwinun god majo himi dulgo
irohge khojyoman gajanha
norul hyanghan ne guriumi jogumsshig
jiwojiji anhun che nama isso
miryonobshi boneryo hesso
gyondil su issulgora
misotjiman ajig namun sarang
doug giphoman ganun gol
jigyoun i weroumdo
ijen harurado gyondil su obso
nega jomjom miwojyo
dallajin gosun obso honjain gol
tto darun sarangi ol gorago
na midobwatjiman do isang
sumshwinun god majo himi durokgo
irohge khojyoman gajanha
norul hyanghan ne guriumi jogumsshig
jiwojiji anhun che nama isso

~HiRoKo~

~미워 (Hate U, Love U)~

2008-07-27T14:01:00.002+08:00

미워 (Hate U, Love U)

미워하고 싶은데
다른 사람 곁에서
행복한 너를 보는 것도
지쳐버렸어 이젠
아무 것도 모른 채
널 보내야 했던 날
너무도 오랜 일이라서
느낌 조차 없지만
너를 지우려 애써도 봤어
하지만 있을 수 없는 일인 걸
제발 내 곁에 있어줘
달라진 것은 없어 혼자인 걸
또 다른 사랑이 올 거라고
나 믿어봤지만 이젠
숨쉬는 것 마저 힘이 들고
이렇게 커져만 가잖아
너를 향한 내 그리움이 조금씩
지워지지 않은 채 남아 있어
미워하고 싶은데
날 잊은 듯한 너의 뒷 모습만
지키는 것도 지쳐버렸어 이젠
하루 하루 힘 없이
사는 내가 싫었어
이런 내 모습 바꾸려고
노력하지만 안돼
너를 지우려 애써도 봤어
하지만 있을 수 없는 일인 걸
제발 내 곁에 있어줘
달라진 것은 없어 혼자인 걸
또 다른 사랑이 올거라고
나 믿어봤지만 이젠
숨 쉬는 것 마저 힘이 들고
이렇게 커져만 가잖아
너를 향한 내 그리움이 조금씩
지워지지 않은 채 남아 있어
미련없이 보내려 했어
견딜 수 있을거라
믿었지만 아직 남은 사랑
더욱 깊어만 가는 걸
지겨운 이 외로움도
이젠 하루라도 견딜 수 없어
네가 점점 미워져
달라진 것은 없어 혼자인 걸
또 다른 사랑이 올 거라고
나 믿어봤지만 더 이상
숨 쉬는 것 마저 힘이 들었고
이렇게 커져만 가잖아
너를 향한 내 그리움이 조금씩
지워지지 않은 채 남아 있어

~HiRoKo~

~82~

2008-07-26T23:11:00.002+08:00

Today went out with my friends to buy for my 21st birthday celebration at Loyang Aloha Chalet.. And there is also a bad new for people out there, i just broke up with my 4 year and 4 months boyfriend over some problem that had come between both of us... But never mind, no matter what i have alot of memories with him and i never ever regret of being with him.. I do feel sad but i will be fine after that..

I feel so relax now and feel so good after i say out the break with him.. We will not be able to be together in the future but only good friends... But anyway thanks for your love for me for the past few years and months.. And anything just find me.. Will always be there for you... Take care...

~HiRoKo~

~81~

2008-07-20T22:51:00.009+08:00

Today went to celebrate my friends birthday but i didn't went to my other friend birthday celebration as is raining and he organize at East Coast Park and is open space so never go... Today i cried at Vivo City and hide myself in the toilet to let myself cool down because something happen to me and i don't wish to say out at here so don't ask me anymore...

Just feel sad until i totally no mood... How i wish i am not in a stupid mess i involving now... Even i am in the mess, i also don't wish to have got into this mess... Feel so irritating... Next time if anything happen, don't ask me to help anymore... I don't wish to have anything to get me involve... And today i just want to talk to my boyfriend about the mess i get involve in but he just don't wish to care for me... Could he just have the heart to care for me a bit as i really need his care now but he was not there for me... I feel so sad now... I hate myself why i become like this... How can i not hating myself and more love myself??? I thought of leaving Singapore to other country to continue my life but i just can't bear my family members here and i live there alone just to forget about here happening... Can i do this???

Why always is me to involve in this type of problem??? Am i so busybody to care for others?? Or i just have nothing to do to care for people around me??? Should i left those people of mine alone??? Let them suffer there and i just ignore them??? WHY??? If anyone tell me their problems i will only listen and do nothing is it correct??? Just to care someone will make me to this stupid mess is it worth it... I feel so hurt and i can't stop crying of how people treat me... Will stop now and blog the next time...

Today is also my lunar birthday so my parents decided to help me to celebrate in advance for my English birthday which is fall on 12th August which i can't put candles on it but today i do want to thanks my parents, siblings and even my sister's boyfriend, Ben who are there to celebrate with me.. Thanks and love you all much.. My mum and sisters are always there for me whenever i am sad and being hurt... Thanks... And also i want to thanks my dearest girlfriend Yvonne for the trip down to my house to pass me my 21st present which she buy for me.. I am so touch by her and i love her present much.. Thanks my lovely girl... Here is the present i recieve from my friend the very first one.. Because my family did buy for me a diamond necklaces for my 21st a few months back..

~By Yvonne (HanDbAg)~ ~By Family(DiAmoNd NeCklAce)~

Dear people, please please cherish your people around you without any regrets.. If not when the people leave you then you feel sad or hurt, you will not be able to do anything else more to cherish them... Please please cherish them...

~HiRoKo~

~80~

2008-07-19T19:27:00.003+08:00

Today is Saturday but i as normal stay at home doing nothing but today i spend my day to finish up my Korean Drama, 1% of Anything which was nice but not so prefect to watch the second time... Here is the photo of the the show i say..

~1% of Anything~

But tomorrow i will be meeting my ITE friends and gals for celebrating for my friends, Jia Fu 22 and Andy 20 birthday but tomorrow is also my chinese lunar birthday.. Haha.. Should be celebrating mine instead as their is not the actually date.. I am waiting for the Buffet Dim Sum for tomorrow but don't know whether is it nice or not.. If nice, i will recommend everyone to go to.. But today my stomach is not feeling well and hopefully tomorrow will be better, and also tomorrow i still have to rush to my the other friend's birthday party which is at East Coast Park... Oh ya, tomorrow i will be getting my first present from my dearest girlfriend, Yvonne... Love her much...

Got one damn bad new to say out.. One of my Seconday mate friend, Jie Sheng... His dad just passed away and yesterday is the last day of the Funeral which i don't know until Friday i email him and he yesterday reply me but i only today just saw the email... Feel so sad to him my friend.. He told me that his dad's passed away notice is on the newspaper and his name is also there but i seldom see newspaper so i don't know sorry my friend i really don't know... Will stop now.. Will blog the very next time...

~HiRoKo~

~79~

2008-07-17T21:45:00.002+08:00

On Monday night i dream i had a wonderful boyfriend to be by my side but that is only a dream to me because my real life is not my dream... Saturday and Sunday i went out with my group of friends and had a lot of fun but Sunday night a couple is quarreling and the guy cried and what i do is console him and cried with him too as i too miss him until the night is so bad as we are watch Hancock and should be a comedy but in the end become quite sad as i don't wish to see any couple quarrel as they must treasure what they have now as me want to treasure but he just not there for me to treasure and i also wish to have someone there to quarrel with me not everyday but is i wish there is someone for me... But i only can dream....

On Saturday night, after we watch finish the fireworks for the preview of National Day. We will just sitting in front of the fireworks as i suggest to go to Marina Square the food court there to sit and watch.. So nice to see the fireworks but i miss those days watch the fireworks with my boyfriend.. Haiz... Then after that, we haven't go home yet as surely alot of people were at the MRT station so we went around to walk and in the end we find seat just outside the Sony Ericsson shop and while we will talking and have fun, a group of guys who were siting beside us are all Malay but only one chinese... And the funny thing is that the chinese guy keep calling my name and i don't even know him... After that, they walk off first so we continue to talk until Joyce's Brother call then we walk to MRT station to go home when we reaching MRT station, we saw the group of guys again and they start to call my name again.. But the chinese guy look cute to me.. Haha... He also take the same train as me but he drop off at Bishan.. Maybe he might be my friend's friend or i know one.. As i see his face not familiar at all... But i still confused how he know my name... And know which is me?? Maybe i know him.... Got to go to sleep so stop now... Write in the next time....

~HiRoKo~

~78~

2008-07-14T19:59:00.003+08:00

Feel so sad now as most of my friends are not able to come to my 21st birthday celebration. So those one who can come must come lei if not my chalet look so pathetic one.. No mood to blog so write a bit only...

~HiRoKo~

~77~

2008-07-10T22:53:00.001+08:00

Oh my god, I past few days heard from radio that Super Junior is coming for the MTV ASIA AWARDS 2008 and I don’t really hear very clear of whether is it them or not so today I went to the MTV ASIA website and saw their photos and news of coming to GENTING for the awards as this year they are organizing at GENTING. How I wish can go but sad I won’t be able to go as I need to work. 2nd of August I want to see, how I wish my house got SCV and I will be able to see it.. If I told my sister about it, she also will wish to see one.. Here is the website of saying them got coming.. http://www.mtvasiaawards.com/Singapore/News/200807/04000039.php

I damn angry for something which my cousin does. He so irresponsible for his studies, he never think of any consequences one. He just happily wants to withdraw from his course now. Wasting of his mum, dad and grandpa’s money. My grandpa especially dotes on him that why he forks out some money for his studies but he just want to withdraw without thinking. I so angry of his way of settle his problem. And I don’t feel like saying him this but he just a coward to me as the story began, yesterday when at the morning my dad drove my cousin to the MRT to take train to school but when he was about to left my dad’s car, he told my mum who was also went along as she need to buy some groceries that he was going back to Malaysia to get his certificate as he intend to quit his studies and go to his uncle’s workplace to work as he found out that he doesn’t have any interest in his studies now so he might be studies the next time round. And what I told myself is that I actually want to help him one but now I don’t wish to help him. I even ask my mum to stop helping him as because his mum also says if he wants to quit then let him be. So I told my mum is their money and problem so we will stop helping him from now on... If he wants to study, let him find himself. If my friends want to know more, when I meet you then I tell you. As the story is tooooo long so can’t finish. If I going to finish the story, I can write the story to a book. Say he makes my whole family so angry. And I feel that my whole family so poor thing as you know what my grandpa say us, he say us that because of us bully him, that why he doesn’t want to study. When I heard that, I feel so stupidly why at the first place we help him to come to Singapore to study. Why we have to. I totally hate what my grandpa says. He never think of how we feel one even we are not his inner grandchildren but we are still his outer grandchildren too.. Why we are the one feel so sad and yesterday I did cry because of what he does. He can’t take stress, then I and his elder brother also study at private school and we both waste a lot of time at study. We didn’t make any noise as we know study is good for us and not bad for us and us also wasting money so we have to bear with it. If he doesn’t wish to study, he should not sign up for courses at the first place. And just because his irresponsible, making so many people worry for him. Stop now will blog the next time..

~HiRoKo~

~76~

2008-07-08T20:11:00.006+08:00

July 8, 2008 (11.21AM)

Been so long never blog. I just message my friends to tell them that don’t play a prank on me on my birthday celebration as I really hate people play prank on me as I got a worst experience before when I was in Secondary life. As I know that they are going to play a prank on me but I don’t even ever think that they really going to do this on me.. One of my friend told me that other friend of mine is going to play a prank on me on that particular day when I went shopping with them and they just happily disappear in no where and I was so sad in my heart and at the same time I so angry about that.. I just hate the feeling on this.. Sorry my friends, I just wish my birthday celebration will be a nice memories to me and not a nightmare to me.. As this morning my mum told me that my celebration is on the mid of the 7 month of lunar calendar and I am not suppose to have any candles on my cake and no “HAPPY BIRTHDAY” song to be sing. And she told me to celebrate on my lunar birthday which is fall on the 20th of July 2008 and in Lunar Calendar is 18th of the 6 month. So my friends hope you all know how I feeling now.. Please Please don’t do those things on me.. Thanks... But my mum say she goes ask my auntie whether can I just put candles on the cake without lighting and can sing “HAPPY BIRTHDAY” song.. But I think this year my birthday will be a quiet year as no “BIRTHDAY” song for me.. Have to sing in my heart for myself.. Have to get back to my work now.. Will blog later..

July 8, 2008(3.54PM)

Come back from lunch quite a time. Just now too busy so no time to blog.. Now continue in my blog again. So long didn’t blog, actually have a lot of things want to say but just don’t know how to write it out. Lots of things happen.. Think will not write in.. And I got to stop as my works damn much.. Cannot write more.. Sad right… Ok, got to stop.. Write in more next time..

July 8,2008(8.14PM)

I just come back from work and have my dinner too.. Just now confirm that my birthday will not have candles on my cake and not be singing "BIRTHDAY" Song.. So please take note all my friends, don't sing "BIRTHDAY" song for me ok.. Thanks.. Stop now..

~HiRoKo~

~75~

2008-06-29T15:09:00.003+08:00

Today my second blog, i have not been going out for weeks so tired. How i wish i can go out as i want to buy something. But i don't have someone to accompany me to do my shopping.. Totally my lucky for this year suck, Whatever i do and wish for, will not come true and wil also getting worst then before. I really wish next year will be better. The someone will see my blog but i don't think so. Whenever, i happen to think about him. I will feel so empty inside my heart. Even i have lots of friends and family to care for me. I still feel something is missing which is him. As he did bring me lots of laughter, happiness and care. But those things are missing for months already. Just hope will be coming back. Going out soon, blog the next time..

~HiRoKo~

~74~

2008-06-29T14:06:00.021+08:00

Today is a hot weather and i feel so hot now. Wish i will be going to shopping centre later or went to swimming. Haha.. But i just went to some of the website to find some of my favourite watches photos. Here is some of the watches photos. I will be collecting those watches which i post up.. Will be buying slowly to collect them. People will think i am crazy but i just love to collect watches very much since i was young. So don't think of asking not to buy them. I will still think of ways to buy my favourite watches.. For Bags and shoes which i love, i will still buy it but not so crazy for watches. I still remember when last year, i bought my first favourite Guess watch and guess what. Actually my mummy don't let me buy one because she say is expensive but i don't care, i went back the next day to go buy this watch. You see how much passion i love watches. The passion can't compare with other things. Will Blog next time.. Here are all my photos:-

~My First Favourite Guess Watch~

Addias Candy Watch ( Red & White )

~Don't know which colour should i take. As I love both of the colours.~

O.D.M Watch ( Pixel & Butterfly )

~Again, don't know which one i want. Haha!! Maybe will buy two of them.~

Puma Watch ( Sirius Ladies & Valentine )

~Again and again, love this two also... Maybe again will buy this two. Haha!!~

Guess Trend Ladies ( Gold Tone & Steel )

~This two watches look nice and i long wish to buy this for months ago so i will be buying the Gold one as i love Gold very much..~

~HiRoKo~

~73~

2008-06-27T21:32:00.001+08:00

Yesterday, I leave my 21st present diamond necklace from my siblings and mummy at my office. Lucky my previous boss is still here and she keeps it for me. If not, I surely will cry if it is lost and I don’t know how to tell them I lost it. It’s just a bad nightmare to me. When I was leaving my office, I told myself that I must remember to take it but I still forgot about it. If I tell them I leave it at office, they will definitely scream at me one. Today, early in the morning got a lot of stuff to do as my tutor Zhi Yan had left us because his school start orientation already so he can’t work with us. So I have to be independent now. Have to slowly learn what he had teach me the previous. Have to recall every little thing. Hopefully I didn’t create any problem for my current department. Me going for lunch now. Yummy!!! Back from lunch, have to complete all my task if not, I won’t be able to finish on time. Just receive my agent call an hour ago as one of my colleague is leaving too for his study, so ask me whether do I have anyone can recommend. So I say you can ask Joyce whether she want to work or not as now she hasn’t find any job yet. So she ask me whether she can work on the 7th July or not. I say she might be can as she so free. So ask me for her hand phone no so I give her by SMS. After that call, I wait for around half an hour to call Joyce to check whether do my agent called Joyce but she hasn’t called yet maybe she too busy. So I told Joyce about what she told me and I ask her to wait for her call and she want to tell Joyce. Have to get back to work now. Will write in later.

Continue today which is Friday my favorite day as today need not work. Joyce just now did message me and tell me that the agent called her and tell her the detail but we hope that nothing will happen in between if not Joyce will be sad again as she really need a job as we are planning to go to Japan next two years time if she never work, she won’t be able to go. For me, If I got the money on hand. I will definitely go. Today lunch time, guess who I saw. I saw品冠 at Vivo City but since no fans or people notice him. Only me and my colleagues notice him. When I saw him, I was staring at him as I find him so familiar and he was also staring at me too. Haha, what a joke is it. But he look so handsome in person and tall too. He don’t look like very old but look like a mid 20, so nice to see him at Singapore. Today is busy day for me as I haven’t stop for a break yet. Keep on doing and doing. Ya, almost forgot that I actually yesterday want to post this up but I forgot because I save it and I went home and at home I too lazy to on my computer so today continue. Now the time is 4.57 PM leave 1 hour and 17 mins leave. Today my friend can’t send me home as she is watching movie later at Marina Square so have to take public transport later. Think stop now and continue my job. Will blog a new one tomorrow or other day.

~HiRoKo~

~72~

2008-06-25T18:15:00.000+08:00

Start of my three day of work now. Feel so busy but I just too tired to think much. They are like torturing me as they are giving me lots of work. I just bother to rush my time, just take my own time to finish all this work now. One more hour to my lunch break. Maybe after lunch, I will step up to do my stuff faster. Why they don’t want my friends to work here too. If they are here, I got helpers to help me instead of me doing the work alone. Some more I now sitting in front of the door when my colleagues walking here and there I will be so busybody go turn my head to see who is this. I miss my life with my previous boss. I got to go back to do my work now. Will blog in later when I come back from lunch.

Just come back from work. What I told you is when morning time my work already so much but now more worst. The more job they will be giving me. Now I no time to drink water or do other things have to rush. Later then blog again. Finally now is my time to blog again. But soon I am going home as my time is up. Will blog the next time..

~HiRoKo~

~InFo~

2008-06-24T21:50:00.002+08:00

I got a place which selling accessories and maybe clothings as which the seller is just started to start the blog to sell.. Anyone can give to this blog which is http://mummyshop.blogspot.com and view it or you can start to purchase the things over there and also can give comments there..

~HiRoKo~

~71~

2008-06-24T21:21:00.002+08:00

I finally start work for 2 days since yesterday but the problem is i can't stand the department manager and the people in there.. I just don't like being in there.. If my previous manager want me back for the next next month, i will surely want to join back my previous department... But if no, i won't want to continue my work there after one month as they just say they need me only one month. Actually got three temporary staffs helping out but the funny things is that when i start to join, their temporary job will be ending this week for the three of them.. Why don't them want my two other friends. Think i super woman huh?? Ask me one person do three people job and get one person's pay.. So unlucky, but hope my boss will get the chance to refer me back to my previous job scope.. I prefer working for my boss than this current manager.. God, can give me some blessing for my job back??

I need to organize my 21st birthday now as soon or later will be going to August.. Hey my friends, if you happen to see this blog, just to inform you that i will be organizing my BBQ and maybe buffet on the 15th August... Will be sending out my invitation through Short Message Service(SMS) or E-mail... My mum still sick but i am not able to take care of her as i have to work and my siblings also started schooling so no choice no one can take care of her. Only she can take good care of herself. I want to watch movie again.. I finally watch my previous movie which is Kung Fu Panda which i watch the movie at City Square which is located at Malaysia Johor.. The cinema is under Cathay.. So nice to watch and happy that someone accompany me watch which are my sister, brother and cousins. Thanks man.. Will start to blog the next time..

~HiRoKo~

~70~

2008-06-20T18:15:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went to Malaysia to do my Malaysian IC but my mum was so sick even until can't walk.. Has to drag herself to accompany me go do IC very poor thing.. So scare that she was having dengue fever but lucky she is not.. But today she is not so well yet, on the way to recover.. My relative alot of them are having fever and body aching also don't know what happen.. Yesterday have good news too.. My previous company yesterday called me that they need one more temporary staff but only for a month.. I agree to start work next Monday but sadly is that my two friends are not able to work so sorry for them for not getting the work..

Joyce and Xiao Wei so sorry.. Will help you guys to keep a lookout for job.. Having a lot of dreams for the past few days.. Have dream alot.. Good and bad too.. My body is aching too maybe going to sick too... Have to take good care of myself.. To all my friends, please take good care of yourselves as the weather is turning from hot to cold... Will start to blog next time..

~HiRoKo~

~69~

2008-06-17T15:28:00.006+08:00

Just come back from Malaysia after 3 days at there, got alot of mosquito bites and celebrate Father's day there and also see those cute little puppies, they are so cute.. Hope can bring back but no way.. We also eat cakes for the continuous three days, surely will be fat... And also bad news for me, Joyce and Xiao wei.. My previous job don't need us as they need urgent staff to help them to do work but me and they the earliest we can start work is this coming Friday but they just can't wait so have to look for a new job.. Any one who need temp staffs?? Can call me..

On 11th June 2008, me accompany my parents back to Malaysia to visit my grandpa as he has dengue fever and was hospitalize for 4 days.. After we visit him, we went to City Square to have our dinner and after dinner at Mac, my mum ask me whether want to shop for awhile, i told her no need so after that, we walk to the causeway and all the way to Singapore..

We need job urgently, please tell me if you need three staffs.. We all need jobs.. Thanks.. Don't know what to write as no mood to write.. No Job, no mood.. Haiz.. And also will upload the photos..

~HiRoKo~

~68~

2008-06-14T00:21:00.007+08:00

Today should be Friday 13th but got some good news and bad news too.. Good news are we 4 piggys finally meet up together and went to Bedok to eat our Favourite Curry Fish Head which is located beside the Hawker Centre, will be working at 23th June 2008 and end at 31th October 2008 and will be working with Joyce and Xiao Wei and get my IC.. Bad news is that i accidently pour my Ice Lemon Tea on Joyce's legs and shorts.. So Sorry.. I don't know why my hand so not strenght.. And make Joyce so sticky and wet.. Me only kana my right leg and sandals...

And Good news is that my grandpa finally discharged from Hospital after 4 days of treatment in the hospital... Tomorrow my mum and brother will be going back to celebrate Father's Day with my grandpa or maybe not celebrate but still will be going back as she promise him so have to... So Sunday still don't know whether will be watching Kung Fu Panda with my family or not as before that we already say it but now my grandpa discharge so maybe got some problems with it as we say Sunday go watch Kung Fu Panda and Monday go shopping at Malaysia... So tomorrow then will decide again.. Will upload my photo and will blog next time.. And also that day i at home try out to use the fake eye lash and is so success, will upload my eyes will fake eye lash...

~HiRoKo~

~67~

2008-06-12T14:04:00.002+08:00

Just went to see my friends' blog and so envious of them as they have people accompany them to go watch movies as for me so long never watch.. My very last movie was Sky Of Love.. Have alot of movies want to watch starting from What happen in Vegas, Accuracy of Death, Sex and the City, Kung Fu Panda, Step Up 2 the Streets, Speed Racers and more others which i totally forgot what title of the movies.. Have people accompany to watch movies is a nice things to do.. But even i ask my sister to accompany me go watch movies, she will either watch with her friends or boyfriend.. Sad right.. Now left this lonely girl here.. No choice but to accept..

~HiRoKo~

~WisH List~

2008-06-12T13:42:00.004+08:00

I want to buy this Handphone which only come at Korea.. But i wish to buy from online as i really love it much.. The brand is Samsung Anycall which is only for Korea.. Will buy it this year or next year.. It comes with three colors, Sliver, Pink and Black.. Me will either buy Pink or Black.. My favourite colors.. Here is the photos of my favourite Handphone...

~HiRoKo~

~66~

2008-06-12T13:20:00.004+08:00

Here is my new blog.. I last few weeks went to buy 小鬼的鬼怒穿 at the Popular Book Store.. I just buy the books for 25 plus Dollars as i got the Popular card so i got the offer.. If not the book will only cost us 27 plus Dollars.. But yesterday i online to check how much is it and you guess how much.. It cost me 45 dollars if i buy online...

And some more the book comes with the CD which mine also have.. Cost so differently.. But lucky i buy already as i went back to see and i found out that is selling fast and think soon or later will finish.. As 小鬼 only comes out with the book with the CD only 5000 sets in Tawain.. But in other countries maybe have some more sets... Here is the book photos.. I love the book much as have alot of his own drawing and photos which was so handsome..

~HiRoKo~

~65~

2008-06-10T12:36:00.003+08:00

Yesterday went to Malaysia to Reborn my hair and my sister's hair but sadly is that my grandpa was hospitalise because he has dengue fever and was very serious... He now no strenght to walk and don't feel like eating too.. He was hospitalise at our hometown hospital but now was send to Johor hospital now after one week of staying at home..

My mum was so worry and want to go back in to see how is my grandpa.. Maybe tomorrow my mum and dad will be going back to see how my grandpa and my mum ask me to go too.. I got the fear to visit people in the hospital..

Anyone know what to cook for those people who has serious dengue fever.. As my auntie and uncle don't know what to cook for my grandpa to eat.. I thinking of asking my parents to send my grandpa to Singapore to seek for treatment as he was like getting worst... I still don't know yet but to see him first then say... Will blog next time.. Grandpa will recover soon and be stronger... God will always bless you...

~HiRoKo~

~First Snow Lyric English~

2008-06-08T22:34:00.001+08:00

First Snow - Super Junior

[Kyuhyun]
I’ve waited for one entire year.
I missed winter so much.
A day seems so long. I am just waiting for the first snow.
[Yesung]
I hold your small hands and pray.
If all this love could pile up in the world,
[Donghae]
everyone would be happy.

[All]
When the white snow falls,
[Kangin]
the entire town is full of the laughter of small children.
[All]
Your mischievous smile I can’t stop loving U
[Ryeowook]
I can tell Woo The first snow is coming.
[All]
When this night passes…

(RAP)
[Eunhyuk]
When this night passes, the first snow will most likely be heaped up.
The whole world will be white as though I am the main character in a fairy tale.
[Shindong]
Your bright, angelic smile will lighten up the dark street.
The stars in the night sky will positively send down the white snow.

[Heechul]
The world reflected in your eyes is so beautiful.
[Sungmin]
I am thankful that I am able to spend this moment with you.

[All]
When the white snow falls,
[Siwon]
the entire town is full of the laughter of small children.
[All]
Your mischievous smile,
[Eeteuk]
Just show it to me.

[Kyuhyun]
When did you become such a close person to me without me knowing?

[K.R.Y]
You are more precious than anyone, like the first snow.

[Kangin]
When the first snow falls, the whole world is filled with your twinkling eyes and
[Siwon]
my heart that loves you. With that
[Hankyung]
I am happy(I am happy) with you.

[All]
When the white snow falls,
[Donghae]
the entire town is full of the laughter of small children.
[All]
Your mischievous smile I can’t stop loving U

[Sungmin]
I can tell. (Yesung: I can tell) Woo The first snow is coming.
[All]
When this night passes,
[Yesung]
When this night passes…
[Ryeowook]
The first snow will have come.

~HiRoKo~

~First Snow Lyric Korean~

2008-06-08T22:18:00.004+08:00

첫눈이 와 (First Snow) - 슈퍼주니어 (Super Junior)

[규현]
1년을 꼬박 기다린걸요.
겨울이 너무 그리워져서
하루가 더욱 길어 첫 눈이 오기만 기다려
[예성]
작은 네 손을 잡고 기도해
이 모든 사랑이 온 세상 가득히
[동해]
쌓일수만 있다면 모두 행복할텐데

[All]
흰 눈이 오면 동네 가득히
[강인]
꼬마들 웃음소리 넘쳐와
[All]
난 너의 장난스런 미소 I can't stop loving U
[려욱]
난 알 수 있는걸 Woo 첫 눈이 와
[All]
오늘 밤이 지나가면

(RAP)
[은혁]
오늘 밤이 지나가면 첫 눈이 수북히 쌓였겠지
온 세상이 하얗게 마치 내가 동화속의 주인공같겠죠
[신동]
천사같은 환한 미소가 어두운 거리 밝게 비춰
밤하늘의 별이 분명히 흰 눈을 내려줄거야

[희철]
너의 눈동자에 비친 세상은 얼마나 아름다운지
[성민]
지금 이 순간을 함께 나눌 수 있어 감사해

[All]
흰 눈이 오면 동네 가득히
[시원]
꼬마들 웃음소리 넘쳐와
[All]
난 너의 장난스런 미소
[이특]
내게만 보여줘

[규현]
나도 모르게 어느새 너는 이토록
가까운 사람인거니

[K.R.Y]
그 누구보다 더 소중해 첫 눈처럼

[강인]
첫 눈이 오면 세상 가득히 너만의 반짝이는 눈빛과
[시원]
널 사랑하는 마음 그걸로
[한경]
행복해(행복해) 그대와

[All]
흰 눈이 오면 동네 가득히
[동해]
꼬마들 웃음소리 넘쳐와
[All]
난 너의 장난스런 미소 I can't stop loving U

[성민]
난 알 수 있는걸 (예성:알 수 있는걸) Woo 첫 눈이 와
[All]
오늘 밤이 지나가면
[예성]
오늘 밤이 지나가면
[려욱]
첫 눈이 꼭 왔있을거야

~P>S Will Upload The English Version In the Next Blog~

~HiRoKo~

~First Snow Lyric~

2008-06-08T21:57:00.006+08:00

Chodnuni Wa (First Snow) ~Super Junior~ (Romanization)

[Kyuhyun]

Ilnyonul kkobag gidaringolyo

gyouri nomu guriwojyoso

haruga doug giro chod nuni ogiman gidaryo

[Yesung]

Jagun ne sonul jabgo gidohe i modun sarangi on sesang gadughi

[Donghae]

Ssahilsuman itdamyon modu hengboghaltende

[All]

Hin nuni omyon dongne gadughi

[Kangin]

Kkomadul usumsori nomchyowa

[All]

Nan noui jangnansuron miso I can't stop loving you

[Ryeowook]

Nan al su innungol woo chod nuni wa

[All]

Onul bami jinagamyon

(RAP)

[Eunhyuk]

Onul bami jinagamyon chod nuni subughi ssahyokgetji

on sesangi hayahge machi nega donghwasoge juingong gathgetjyo

[Shindong]

Chonsagathun hwanhan misoga odu un gori balkge bichwo

bamhanure byori bunmyonghi hin nunul neryojulgoya

[Heechul]

Noui nundongjae bichin sesangun olmana arumdaunji

[Sungmin]

Jigum isunganul hamkke nanul su isso gamsahe

[All]

Hin nuni omyon dongne gadughi

[Siwon]

Kkomadul usumsori nomchyowa

[All]

Nan noui jangnansuron miso

[Eeteuk]

Negeman boyojwo

[Kyuhyun]

Nado moruge onuse nonun ithorog

gakkaun saramingoni

[K.R.Y]

Gu nuguboda do sojunghe chod nunchorom

[Kangin]

Chod nuni omyon sesang gadughi nomane banchaginun nunbidgwa

[Siwon]

Nol saranghanun maum gugollo

[Hankyung]

Hengboghe (hengboghe) gudewa

[All]

Hin nuni omyon dongne gadughi

[Donghae]

Kkomadul usumsori nomchyowa

[All]

Nan noui jangnansuron miso I can't stop loving you

[Sungmin]

Nan al su innungol (Yesung: al su innungol) woo chod nuni wa

[All]

Onul bami jinagamyon

[Yesung]

Onul bami jinagamyon

[Ryeowook]

Chod nuni kkog wassissulgoya

~P.S. Will Upload the Korean Version later~

~HiRoKo~

~64~

2008-06-08T21:03:00.002+08:00

Today was a wonderful day but sadly is that my dream for last night was so terrible and i can't imagine it in real life... Today i have my dinner with my family is BBQ and i have a wonderful dinner with them even the oil is on me but i still feel nice to have such a wonderful dinner..

Actually my dream is about i was meeting with my dear and i and he were happily walking on the street.. While we walking, we saw his friends on the street and one of his friend ask who am i.. You guys guess what, he told his friends that i am his ex-girlfriend and i was so shock and i don't know what am i going to do.... I stand at there for awhile and when his friends walk off, i ask him what happen so he told me that during those time, he was falling in love with a girl and become couples with her...

I was double shock of what he told me and i was in a blank mind and don't know what to do and i only remember me crying there.. After that, i walk off without saying goodbye and i call my friends and meet out and i told them what happen to us.. After that i don't know why i and my friends were at his house outside... And his mum suddenly saw me standing outside her house so she walk out and talk to me and i ask her you remember me and she say of course because i am her son's ex girlfriend.. I was so sad so after she say this, i walked off with my friends but i did say goodbye to her before i walk off..

After that incident, i told my friends i have to accept it as i have no choice.. Do you guys find it so real and not like a dream?? I find it like is happen so sudden but when i wake up, i then realise is a dream.. But i still feel i uncomfortable but how?? No choice, have to tell myself if this is going to happen i will have to accept it without any problems... As i love him so i have to let him have his happiness with his loved one...

Tomorrow i will have a brand new me as i going to Malaysia to reborn my hair because my hair is like a crazy girl.. Oh ya, i also dream of some guys but those guys are i don't know one.. I don't know why the guys will appear in my dream.. Been so long that no one had appear in my dream.. Maybe really somethings will be happening but don't is good or bad... Will wait and see what will happen to me... Will blog in again..

~HiRoKo~

~63~

2008-06-07T15:34:00.001+08:00

Hi, I just found out that me and my friend, Sandy's cousin using the same blog skin.. So 巧 right?? Now slowly get use to blogspot as i very long never use it.. Got alot of photos i haven't upload yet will upload at my Multiply website... Upload will inform you guys..

Last Saturday, was Wan Qian and Marcus's Birthday Celebration but Marcus was not there as he was having Dengue Fever so he can't go out.. Sad right... But that day we still have alot of fun at the Bugis as we having our dinner celebration at Wongkok Char Chan Teng which is located at Level 2 at Bugis Junction #02-50... People out there can go and try their foods which really taste good and i will bring my family and friends back to the Restaurant as their foods are tastily and their services are excellent.. You can make a reservations first at this number 63362003...

We also take alot of photos on that day too.. I going to bring my family to eat on the 21 June to replace back the Father's Day as on the actual day i will be going back to Malaysia to celebrate with my grandpa so no time to celebrate with my dad.. Sorry Dad and also father's day present we haven't buy yet.. Have to buy next week if not no time.. Going to upload my photos now.. Will stop now.. Blog next time..

~HiRoKo~

~62~

2008-06-07T01:14:00.000+08:00

Hi Guys, me will be using back my blogspot to blog so please take note of the changes.. Have been searching for my blog skin for the whole night so finally my blogger is up.. Feel free to visit my blog.. I just finish my exams for my Diploma Certificate.. Will be working for the time being as i need the money for my advance Diploma Certificate..

Gals and Guys of my friends, whenever i go out with you are you able to not to mention my boyfriend's name as when i am not thinking of him, you guys will make me remember of him.. I am not blaming of anyone just that i wish not to think of him when i am in a happy mood.. Honestly, i do think of him whenever i feel moody but that is just a memories for me.. No one can help it..

Sorry to say this to you guys.. Hope you guys will understand my 苦衷... Thanks for the small favor i request from you guys.. Ya, just remember that my birthday chalet will be held at 15 August to 17 August 2008... And the BBQ will be held at 16 August 2008 starting at 6.00 PM.. Hope you guys will turn up on time.. Will inform you guys again when the time is arrive..

~HiRoKo~

~61~

2008-05-30T07:12:00.000+08:00

So late never blog so now here is a new blog... Have been housewife for the past few days as my mum went oversea with my bro.. So many things to do as i have to study for my exams which is tomorrow.. So sian.. But i really hope my thinking will be over for all those things but sadly is that i sometimes will think about it and have alot of problems to think about it... I just hope i don't wish to think about it but i can't.. As i really find my world is worst as my dad and mum also will find small things to argue, i find it so irritating but can't do anythings.. Hope just my world will be in peace once i move out.. My relationship in mess and now so clearing the mess.. When i will clear the mess finish... Will i clear the mess until the relationship is gone?? No one will know.. Got to go now as i having my dinner now.. Will blog again...

~HiRoKo~

~60~ (Get To Know Me Better)

2008-05-16T03:43:00.001+08:00

Just went to my friend's post ans happen to see there is a quiz so i happen to go and try it out.. Here is the outcome:-

The question is Get To Know You Better..
Here is the Answer:-

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

P.S. http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

~HiRoKo~

Are You A Right Brained or Left Brained Woman in Love?

2008-05-14T05:22:00.003+08:00

You Are Right Brained In Love

Bit of a drama queen
Peacemaker, first to end a fight
Good at thinking up creative dates
Tend to fall in love and get hurt easily
Going with your gut instead of your head
Empathetic and caring, sometimes to a fault
Good at recognizing patterns in relationships
Been in love many times, perhaps too many to count
Wildly passionate and intense when falling in love
Spontaneous with relationships, going with the flow
Overly visual - can play back past dates like movies in your mind
Roses, love poems, and stuffed animals are a good start to winning your heart

P.S: http://www.blogthings.com/areyouarightbrainedorleftbrainedwomaninlovequiz/

Does He Only Love You For Your Body?

2008-05-14T04:59:00.002+08:00

He Loves You For You

When it comes to your body, your guy hardly notices
It's nothing to do with the way you look...
He's just has really fallen for you
But make sure to stay sexy - keep the chemistry going strong!

P.S: http://www.blogthings.com/doesheonlyloveyouforyourbodyquiz/

How Well Do You Know Your Man?

2008-05-14T04:56:00.003+08:00

What You Know About Your Guy: A Fair Amount

You know enough about your guy to keep dating him
But you don't know enough to decide if he's the one
If you've been dating for less than six months, give it time
Otherwise, he might be hiding a secret side of himself!

P.S: http://www.blogthings.com/howwelldoyouknowyourmanquiz/

What's Your Ideal Relationship?

2008-05-14T04:48:00.003+08:00

Your Ideal Relationship is Marriage

You've dated enough to know what you want.
And that's marriage - with the right person.
You're serious about settling down some time soon.
Even if you haven't met the person you want to get hitched to!

P.S: http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyouridealrelationshipquiz/

Is He Marriage Material?

2008-05-14T04:44:00.003+08:00

Wait Him Out...

He's not ready for marriage yet - but someday he probably will be.
It's really your call to decide if he's worth the wait.
If you've been dating briefly, he may just need to know you better.
But if you've been seeing him for a while, he might be taking his sweet time.

How to get him to commit: Play the field. If you've been dating more than six months (a year if you're under 24), then you two should be very serious. No ring on your finger? It's time to meet other guys. If he wants to keep you, he'll get more serious about you.

P.S: http://www.blogthings.com/ishemarriagematerialquiz

Is He A Keeper?

2008-05-14T04:39:00.000+08:00

He's a Keeper!

Your guy is a rare find: sweet, kind, and loyal.
And as long as he doesn't have three nippples,
You should seriously consider keeping him a long time

Sometimes a girl can't see a good thing when she's got one
So let me tell you: your guy is a gold medal boyfriend
Just make sure you treat him right in return!

P.S: http://www.blogthings.com/isheakeeperquiz

What Flavour Ice Cream Are You?

2008-05-14T04:34:00.000+08:00

You Are Strawberry Ice Cream

A bit shy and sensitive, you are sweet to the core.
You often find yourself on the outside looking in.
Insightful and pensive, you really understand how the world works.

You are most compatible with chocolate chip ice cream.

P.S : http://www.blogthings.com/whatflavoricecreamareyouquiz/

~59~

2008-05-14T03:53:00.000+08:00

Monday, i and my family went down to ICA to do our Singapore Citizenship and one staff there attitude very bad... My parents quarrel for yesterday and monday.. Make me so fed up as i am the eldest and they both will complain to me.. Make my day sucks.. Yesterday, i think of giving up my life as i was so tired of this world and my surrounding.. Making me so sad and sick.. I did message my boyfriend about it but i don't want him to worry so much so i told him that i will be fine.. My tears can't drop out so making me so feel terrible inside my heart... If there is a chance for me to give up my life to save someone who wish to live, i will... As i don't intend to live on as my life is so tired... Whatever i do, all is not success at all... Now even book Chalet for my 21st Birthday, also not success as all the booking is fully book... Have to try other ways, i don't know what should i do if i can't book Chalet... So tired... Good news is that i and my boyfriend got meet up but only one time, i also feel happy... And we do message each other again.. But his problem still leave abit more to settle.. Will wait for him to settle all and will be happy with him back again...

~HiRoKo~

~58~

2008-05-04T11:57:00.001+08:00

Just finish reading Sandy's blog and hear the song she post it in.. The title is Sometimes When We Touch and find it meaningful so i went to find the song lyrics and will now post it in for you guys to reading..

Sometimes When We Touch - Dan Hill

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

So meaningful right.. Hope he will read and understand me... You guys see i am so patient waiting for him but in my heart i was very tired and afraid to lost him... 要爱就不要怕被受伤害。。 I find this sentence meaningful and this sentence comes to me is when i was watching My Lovely Sam Soon... That is also what i told myself... If i really love him, i won't scare of being hurt by him... I will continue to wait for him even my mum and sister ask me to left him... Will give him times to think... He will be in my heart somewhere even he don't has any feeling for me.. Will always be great to him for giving me such a good and sweet memories... Love you Always...

~HiRoKo~

~Poem Time~

2008-05-04T11:36:00.000+08:00

Return to me (Emily Dickinson)

They told me what doesn't kill me
would make me stronger
So i must be dead
Because I can't go on any longer
I know you're still out there
But it feels like you died
How can you carry on
Living this lie
I know you aren't happy
Neither am i
I know you aren't coming back
But i just don't know how to react
I try to hate you
But i don't know how to
I'll Love you forever
And I'll wait until whenever
Because you are my true love
An angel from above
I still see you when i sleep
You got into my soul, so deep
And in my heart is where you stay
Until that one special day
When you return to me
I know that you can still see
That i am your Prince
And i am done trying to convince
Just look in your heart and know
That I rest in your soul
And you can run
And pretend like you're done
But you know inside
You are meant to be my bride
So I wait
And you hate
But together we will thrive
Just hold on, while i try to survive
So come back, before its too late
Please don't let this be our fate

~HiRoKo~

~57~

2008-05-04T10:54:00.000+08:00

Actually yesterday night after our outing, i was suppose writing my blog but sad thing is that my computer was lag and keep hang there and this is my third time writing in... So have to rewrite again... Here is the blog, yesterday we went out to celebrate Joyce's Birthday and we suppose to give her a surprise, but i think Joyce know what is going on... We were suppose to be meeting at 3 pm at Bugis MRT Station but everyone is late except some of them.. I was late too as i have to go to Bishan to collect the cake and have to meet Sandy to put the cake at the steam boat place first before she know it and also the cake can't stand the hot sun... But when we reach Bugis, we have to play hide and seek as Joyce, Lionel and Xiao wei had already reach and i ask Lionel to bring Joyce not to come to level 1 as i scare we will see them so to prevent it.. After we put the cake at the steamboat, we faster go and meet Joyce but before meeting her, we went to meet Jia Fu, Jia Lian and Donavan first.. After we meet Joyce, Andy called Jia Lian and tell him that he was at the arcade and he very lazy to come up to find us so we all went down to go and find him.. After we meeting Andy, the guys all went in to play too except Lionel because he wants to accompany Joyce.. Then left we gals and Lionel, we went to shop first.. Around 5.30 pm, we went back there to find them and called them as we have to going for our dinner.. At that time, Wan qian and her boyfriend, Steve also arrive... We total 11 people went to eat at The House Of Steamboat and the foods and soup over there taste so fantastic... The place there also in air-condition and the price there also very worth it.. Each person cost around SGD 17.90 and also include the wet tissue which cost 30 cents so total is SGD 18.20.. After the dinner, we went outside to cut the cake as Jason who has not come and not eating the dinner... After waiting, we think not to wait as the cake can't wait any more as it going to melt... After eating the cake, the guys thinking of going back to the arcade to play as they have some tokens which they have change earlier this afternoon... Wan qian then go back with her boyfriend as he was very tired.. So left me, Sandy, Joyce, Lionel and Xiao wei where we decided to go to the Esplanade to talk talk.. So on the way there, we have alot of fun there.. Will upload those photos we take on the way to Esplanade once Joyce send us those photos... After that, we also went to Merlion there continue to talk and after that, we have to go back so we went to Raffles Place to take the train as Joyce's stomach is not feeling well... Yesterday, see Joyce, Wan qian and Sandy had someone who they concern stay by their side and share their happiness and unhappiness things.. I do have but that are my past but don't know whether that will come back to my side.. Past few days, i went to Sandy's blog and saw a post she wrote in was actually writing to us.. Will post the poem in for you guys to see.. And also the photos we take will upload too... Will write in another blog next time...

~HiRoKo~

~56~

2008-04-29T22:03:00.000+08:00

Now i am in class doing my project but i now wish to write in a blog so here i am.. Yesterday night, i dream of my boyfriend.. Was a sweet dream.. I dream of him coming to my house to accompany me and we went to AMK Hub to walk walk.. But that is only my dream.. If real life, he will not come and find me one.. Even how much i miss him or what... He will not come one..

But no matter what he choose in the future, i will always respect his decision and will wish him all the best and want him to have his happiness for his future time.... If his future wife is someone else, hope she will take good care of him as i can't do the part to take care of you... But still hope i still got the chance to be with him... Hope he will give me the chance.. Have to stop now.. Got to go... Will write in the next time round...

~HiRoKo~

~55~

2008-04-26T21:39:00.000+08:00

Past few days, so many things happen.. First is that my boyfriend did message me and i was so happy but sadly is that when he message me that time i didn't reply him and wait until a hour later then message him but that time he already sleep and when that time he reply me, was already the next day and he say nothing but i hope he will tell me but he didn't... Never mind, still feel happy.. Yesterday, i did went down to his workplace to pass him the present as today is his birthday... Yesterday was my unlucky day too... My Hello Kitty Purse was stolen and all my Id were all inside and make me have to went down to Police station to make lost... My boyfriend was so concern about me and he keep calling me asking me whether went down to lodge a police report or not... I yesterday my heart and mind was so sad but i don't wish my mum and sister to be sad so i have to be happy... Luckily, my mum, friend and boyfriend is there for me... Have to do all my Id again...

To the one who stole my purse, you are the stupid person in this world... My purse inside only leave 50 cents and all is Id cards... ATM cards can't be use as inside also leave few bucks only and even cashcard too... Even my MDIS Ez-link Card also haven't activate yet.. Inside the purse the expensive item is my HP ear piece.. That's all even my purse only cost me 5 bucks... Don't you think you are stupid... I and my mum think is one of the staff in SUPERDOG at E! Hub stole my purse because when i went back to ask whether do anyone see a Hello Kitty Purse, got two staffs their eyes look so suspicious... I really found them stupid... Got to stop now... Will write in the next time...

~HiRoKo~