Just celebrate finish the Christmas and now coming to the end of the year... I did celebrate the Christmas with my gang of friends in ITE Simei and my family & relatives.... But sadly is that i did not celebrate with my closest one... He did say that on Sun which i having family celebration, he was on whole day working so not free and on Monday, he actually told me that he was not working but he choose to go Malaysia with his mum and not with me and until now i did meet him at all and i was so sad... I even cry on the outing with my friends... While i was crying, the rain also cried heavily and make us all wet and i don't feel so right on that day... I have make my friends and my day to be such a worst day... Sorry my friends and i hope they did have funny as i tried to be alright and happy... But i still feel so sad.. Even until now i tried to talk nicely towards him on phone but i still feel so upset and don't know what should i do to make this relationship better... All my friends and my mum say that why he so busy... Even very busy, should at least call me...

I now choose not to care about what we happen and let it be nature... Hope that will move on faster and smoothly.... Merry Belated Christmas and Happy New Year to all my friends and family....

~HiRoKo~

Hi my friends, I am ok now. Need not worry for me. I try to solve the problem myself. Have talk to him recently but hope the problem is getting more smaller as i don't want to have anythings happen to both of us. He told him that recently he was in something serious happen keep bothering him so he was in a bad mood to talk to me or sms me. Is it an answer or not?? But i have to choose to trust him as he say he will tell me once the problem had settle so have to wait for the reply.

Hope he will be fine and our love will last longer and stronger. And to my dearest friends, thanks for your concern and care when i am in my down mood. And to someone, hope you and he will be couples soon. As he will cherish you more but don't give in so fast. Wait for years ok. Once he woo you, he will know how to cherish you more than now. Will write in tomorrow again.

~HiRoKo~

Tomorrow i will be going out myself and no one there to accompany me. Hey girls out there, i ask you girls were your boyfriends not talking to you for weeks or not??? Have you to find him first. We both have lesser things to talk nowadays, i today cry because i feel so sad and no one there to lend me your ear to hear my rubbish as my girlfriends also having problems too. I don't wish to add on the problems to them. I today finally cry out, i have been bearing all my tears not to cry out since days ago. He told me that his asthma getting worst so he don't wish to talk and message me. Is it a good reason or not???

Am i suffering in this relationship or not???? Or is it i over sensitive???? Should i consider this relationship to stop for us to think??? I really feel very tired.... In my hand phone screen saver should be me and my boyfriend photo but now i change to me and my cousins' shoes photo as i don't wish to see his face now. I feel so heart broken....

Leave two more weeks to christmas but i think he will not be coming to my house for the party on 23 Dec 2007 (Sunday). My mum did invite him to come over but i think he don't appreciate what i doing for him at all.. As my mum don't really like him so i want him to give my mum a good impression but he like don't care at all.. I told him that if you wish to be like that, i will not force him and call him anymore to my house gathering. He don't really want to be with me forever at all. If he want, he will surely take off or find time to come my house one. He told me see how first. I really have no confident in him now and i don't know whether i still got the confident in him the next future time or not... So confuse now..

~HiRoKo~

I feel so sad this few days, i don't know what am i going to do and i also don't know is my fault or what... Feel so miserable and so upset.... He just won't tell me and even i message him the whole day, he only reply back one message and if i write asking why he become like this, he also don't reply me. I feel like talking to a wall. So sad. Anyone who see this, can help me??? He seen like not interested in me anymore. Should i continue this relationship with him??? Should i end it???? I don't know what is he think now... Like what i always tell my friends about it, i actually have a boyfriend but it seen like i don't have any at all....

No girls who will like their boyfriends to be such a way.... I am already giving way to him but he seen not interested at all.... I was so upset by what he do... I told him that i don't wish to talk to him now but he won't write back to 'hong' me at all.... So disappointed in him now.... Anyone who see this, can help me pass this message to him and tell him that am i wasting time in this relationship or he had another girl or he just totally want to end this relationship... I just want to know the answer and stop thinking what actually happen.... But i never regret falling in love with him and my love for him is truly.... Will always remember him being there for me.... Hope my thinking is extra....

~HiRoKo~