Tomorrow i will be going out myself and no one there to accompany me. Hey girls out there, i ask you girls were your boyfriends not talking to you for weeks or not??? Have you to find him first. We both have lesser things to talk nowadays, i today cry because i feel so sad and no one there to lend me your ear to hear my rubbish as my girlfriends also having problems too. I don't wish to add on the problems to them. I today finally cry out, i have been bearing all my tears not to cry out since days ago. He told me that his asthma getting worst so he don't wish to talk and message me. Is it a good reason or not???

Am i suffering in this relationship or not???? Or is it i over sensitive???? Should i consider this relationship to stop for us to think??? I really feel very tired.... In my hand phone screen saver should be me and my boyfriend photo but now i change to me and my cousins' shoes photo as i don't wish to see his face now. I feel so heart broken....

Leave two more weeks to christmas but i think he will not be coming to my house for the party on 23 Dec 2007 (Sunday). My mum did invite him to come over but i think he don't appreciate what i doing for him at all.. As my mum don't really like him so i want him to give my mum a good impression but he like don't care at all.. I told him that if you wish to be like that, i will not force him and call him anymore to my house gathering. He don't really want to be with me forever at all. If he want, he will surely take off or find time to come my house one. He told me see how first. I really have no confident in him now and i don't know whether i still got the confident in him the next future time or not... So confuse now..

~HiRoKo~