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Here is another blog of mine… I feel so tired of my work load and working environment… I actually sometimes don’t really like one of my colleagues who is an uncle to me… He likes to be busybody and like to ‘Shoot’ people to death… He always likes to say me even he is just joking but I just totally don’t like it… So I just keep quiet and can’t be bothering of what he says… Sorry if I hurt someone here… But I just want to say out…
Now all my friends are busy and I just don’t have a close friend to talk about even Marni too as she is far from me and our private time is getting lesser… I feel I am totally not right here and always don’t feel ahead for my work… As for me now, I am always keeping things and won’t want to say out to anyone else… As I just too tired for my life even I did went home and tell my mum about it but I still feel I am not right… My life is full of rubbish for this year…
First I lost my wallet, second I lost my friendship, third I lost my relationship and lastly I lost the faith in myself… Why there are always so many people die but why not me… Even I got so many wishes which I have been done but I don’t deserve to be living on… Why there are always people like to be busybody and went in to someone’s life… WHY??!!!! Should I be happier whenever my heart is crying…? I know I had been mood swing up and down as I just don’t know what I want now…
Even my friends surround me always know me as a happy go lucky girl but I am not… I just don’t like to show what is actually my feeling is in my deep down heart… Even I told them I don’t really mind I break up with him or I lost a friend… But in my deep heart, what actually comes across is “Do I Still Love Him??” “Can I Let Him Go???” “Does This Friend Means a lot To Me??” “Do I Really Mean What I Say??”… But I just choose to say things the other way round to make my life easier but that is wrong…. I still get hurt for what they have done to me…
Should I continue to confess to him or stop it as I don’t want to get hurt again…? I just want a guy to love me more than I do… People can say me selfish but I don’t mind… I just want my life to be easier and happier… Can all those people around me go away and leave me alone… I dun want to be hurt anymore…
For me I am that type of girl easily make friends with someone or easily fall in love with someone but I am always the one get hurt the most because I put in more feeling than anyone else…. But there are always someone will try to hurt me in all kinds of way… But last of all, if I hurt someone here, A BIG SORRY TO YOU as I don’t mean to hurt anyone here…
Now all my friends are busy and I just don’t have a close friend to talk about even Marni too as she is far from me and our private time is getting lesser… I feel I am totally not right here and always don’t feel ahead for my work… As for me now, I am always keeping things and won’t want to say out to anyone else… As I just too tired for my life even I did went home and tell my mum about it but I still feel I am not right… My life is full of rubbish for this year…
First I lost my wallet, second I lost my friendship, third I lost my relationship and lastly I lost the faith in myself… Why there are always so many people die but why not me… Even I got so many wishes which I have been done but I don’t deserve to be living on… Why there are always people like to be busybody and went in to someone’s life… WHY??!!!! Should I be happier whenever my heart is crying…? I know I had been mood swing up and down as I just don’t know what I want now…
Even my friends surround me always know me as a happy go lucky girl but I am not… I just don’t like to show what is actually my feeling is in my deep down heart… Even I told them I don’t really mind I break up with him or I lost a friend… But in my deep heart, what actually comes across is “Do I Still Love Him??” “Can I Let Him Go???” “Does This Friend Means a lot To Me??” “Do I Really Mean What I Say??”… But I just choose to say things the other way round to make my life easier but that is wrong…. I still get hurt for what they have done to me…
Should I continue to confess to him or stop it as I don’t want to get hurt again…? I just want a guy to love me more than I do… People can say me selfish but I don’t mind… I just want my life to be easier and happier… Can all those people around me go away and leave me alone… I dun want to be hurt anymore…
For me I am that type of girl easily make friends with someone or easily fall in love with someone but I am always the one get hurt the most because I put in more feeling than anyone else…. But there are always someone will try to hurt me in all kinds of way… But last of all, if I hurt someone here, A BIG SORRY TO YOU as I don’t mean to hurt anyone here…
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